Lilipas na naman ang isang taon. Ayos. Magsasawa tayo sa uno (1) ngayon. Unang araw pa lang ng taon 1-1-11 na. Kung pumapasok pa pala ako sa eskwela magandang bagay sana ang uno. Buti na lang hindi na.
Paalam Dos Mil Diyes.
Welcome 2011.
Palagi na lang nakakabit sa pagsapit ng Bagong Taon ang ideyang panahon na ito ng bagong simula. Nakakatawa. Hindi ba't palagi naman tayong pwedeng magsimula kahit hindi Bagong Taon? Sabagay, tradisyon na din siguro nga. Panahon daw para sa mga New Year's resolution at kung anu-ano pang pangako sa sarili. Mga pangakong mga 80% eh hindi matutupad. (Teka ma-check nga yung mga pinangako ko last year...)
Quoting myself a year agO :
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"Siguro kung paano ko sinalubong ang bagong taon eh parang foreshadowing ng mangyayari the whole year."
That's about starting things right. Start the year right and end it right.
This year I had resolved to change things. A new year means a new self. Time to move forward. Time to keep walking. Here I go. Almost there. Taking a higher leap, I'm going to reach you.
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Ayun. Kinontra ko na sarili ko. Isa lang ako sa mga nag-iisip na ang bagong taon ay bagong sarili. Nangakong magpapatuloy ng hakbang pasuloooong, kad! Kaliwa, kaliwa. Kaliwa kanan Kaliwa. Lipaw, da! (One, Two!). Adik ako. Ahaha. Cough Cough Cough!!!
(Pambihirang ubo 'to oh, kanina ka pa nang-aano eh. Wag ka nang makisabay sa putukan bukas, ayoko nang salubungin ang bagong taon na masama na naman ang pakiramdam. Tuseran! Solmux! Magtrabaho na kayo!!!)
Me nagbago ba ngayong 2010? Sa'ken? Sa iba? sa Bansa?
Sa wakas, salamat sa Konstitusyon at tuluyan nang bumaba sa pwesto ang mababa este maliit na pinuno. Nag-kulay bahaghari ang mga lansangan, panay ang batuhan ng kung anu-anong propaganda. Maraming na LSS sa "Nakaligo ka na ba sa dagat ng basura. Nagpasko ka na ba sa gitna ng Kalsada". Marami ang nagsabit ng mga dilaw, dalandan (dalandan nga tagalog sa orange no?), berde at kung ano ano pang laso sa kanilang mga sasakyan. Nagkaroon ng bagong pinuno. Ang dating pinuno, UBOD talaga ng husay at bait sapagkat patuloy na naglilingkod sa bayan ??!
Naging bida ang Pilipinas sa international community dahil sa kapalpakan. Nanalo na naman si PacMan. Natalo ang San Miguel sa Finals ng PBA.
Ano pa nga ba?
Siguro nga me nagbago. Ang tanong, makabuluhan ba ang mga naganap? Para sa karamihan, malamang. Sa'ken, ewan. [Tama na nga ang pagiging kritiko sa mga suliranin ng bayan, wala din naman akong ginagawa kundi ngumawa kaya walang karapatang manisi pa].
::back to being a self-centered post::
Nakagraduate na din yung isa sa mga malalapit kong kaibigan after 48 years.=) Nagsimula nang mag-aral yung pinakamatanda kong pamangkin. Nakalipat na naman ako ng nirerentahang kwarto. Pero nandito pa din sa parehong trabaho. At speaking of trabaho, nagkapapatong-patong ang kapalpakan ko. Buti na lang nakabawi bago matapos ang taon. Tawanan lang daw ang mga pagkakamali. Eh di tawanan. Ayun, naging okei na ulet, siguro.
Masyado akong nahype sa pagbabalik eskwela ko. Matagal ko din pinagplanuhan. Nagpost pa ng kung ano-anong related sa pag-aaral. Bumili ng memo plus para marefresh ang kinakalawang ng memorya. Nagpractice magsulat na parang Grade 1 sa pang Grade 1 na papel. Nagloan ng reading glasses para sa mga tambak na babasahin. Nanghiram ng memory aids, notes and books sa mga kaklaseng nagpatuloy sa abogasya. Nakatuntong muli sa loob ng classroom. Nakinig, nagmemorize, nagrecite, nag-exam, nasindak, natuwa, inantok, natulog ng 2 oras sa isang araw, natambakan ng hand-outs, nagdigest ng cases sa harap ng monitor habang nasa trabaho, nagresearch, at syempre, nagbasa ng nagbasa...
para lamang sumuko sa huli.
Isa siguro sa mga pinagpapasalamat at pinanghihinayangan ko ngayong taon ay ang pagiging estudyante na muli. Nagpapasalamat, sapagkat kahit papaano, nakondisyong muli ang utak ko. Napatunayan na kaya ko pa palang makipagsabayan sa pag-aaral kahit nabakante ako ng mahigit 2 taon. Nanghihinayang, sapagkat nagpadala sa pressure, pinili ang hanapbuhay kesa sa pag-aaral, at inisip na mas mahalaga ang pera ngayon kesa makatapos sa pag-aaral. Magkaganunpaman, pinapangako kong babalikan ko ang buhay estudyante para tuparin ang matagal ko nang pangarap. Marahil, hindi ngayong taon, o sa mga susunod pa. Palaging nakatingin ang isa kong mata dito, mahirap na, baka makalimot.
Anything else?
Sumubok, tinumbasan, maayos sa simula, ilang buwan lang ang lumipas, natapos din. Natuto. Nagpakatanga.
Sa kabuuan, madaming maganda, madaming di magandang nangyari sa'ken ngayong 2010. Fair share, ika nga. I'd take it anyway.
Ngayon, parang ayoko na mangako ng pagbabago. Di naman kelangan, kasi mangyayari at mangyayari din yun. Pwedeng limitahan, pero di pwedeng pigilan. Kung pwede din lang, ayoko ng mangako. Mahirap na, sawa na akong batukan ang sarili dahil sa sandamakmak na planong nauwi lang sa pagiging drawing.
Aasa na lang ako sa kung anumang ibibigay sa'kin ngayong darating na taon. Accept what the times has to offer me, and somehow work on it.
Magpapatuloy sa kabaliwan sa kabila ng lahat ng kabalintunaan...
Manigong Bagong Taon!!!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Activate Author Mode
Matagal tagal na din palang di ko nagagalaw 'tong blog ah. Kelangan na mag-ipon ulit ng bagong ideas para sa bagong ewan na post.
As promised, I will keep myself sharp so there'll be no need to do much maintenance when I return to the "right track". Mahirap na, pumupurol na ulit ang utak. Di pwedeng nakatambak na lang ang libro, handouts, notes, full text cases, salamin, memo plus, papel at ballpen. Parang McArthur lang, I shall return. At parang Big Brother lang. Sa takdang panahon.
I will never just give up on my dream that easily. But if I need to take a different road before heading back to it, I will gladly accept that.
Ang pangarap, makapaghihintay. Pero hindi naman pwedeng palagi na lang itong paghihintayin. Baka mamaya, mawala na lamang ito sa paningin. Mabuti na din na palaging nakatanaw ang isang mata sa pupuntahan. Kahit magpabago-bago ako ng daan, alam ko pa rin kung saan ang huling destinasyon.
At sa ngayon, magtyatyaga na lang ako sa paggawa ng mga bagay na alam kong ikabubuhay ko bagaman hindi ko gaanong gusto. Kunsabagay, karamihan naman ganito ang pinagdadaanan. Ang maging masaya at makuntento sa anong inihahain sa'yo, sapagkat sa ngayon ito lamang ang mabibigay sa'yo, bagaman madami ka pang ibang bagay na hinahangad.
Ganda ng palusot!
As promised, I will keep myself sharp so there'll be no need to do much maintenance when I return to the "right track". Mahirap na, pumupurol na ulit ang utak. Di pwedeng nakatambak na lang ang libro, handouts, notes, full text cases, salamin, memo plus, papel at ballpen. Parang McArthur lang, I shall return. At parang Big Brother lang. Sa takdang panahon.
I will never just give up on my dream that easily. But if I need to take a different road before heading back to it, I will gladly accept that.
Ang pangarap, makapaghihintay. Pero hindi naman pwedeng palagi na lang itong paghihintayin. Baka mamaya, mawala na lamang ito sa paningin. Mabuti na din na palaging nakatanaw ang isang mata sa pupuntahan. Kahit magpabago-bago ako ng daan, alam ko pa rin kung saan ang huling destinasyon.
At sa ngayon, magtyatyaga na lang ako sa paggawa ng mga bagay na alam kong ikabubuhay ko bagaman hindi ko gaanong gusto. Kunsabagay, karamihan naman ganito ang pinagdadaanan. Ang maging masaya at makuntento sa anong inihahain sa'yo, sapagkat sa ngayon ito lamang ang mabibigay sa'yo, bagaman madami ka pang ibang bagay na hinahangad.
Ganda ng palusot!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
New One Piece Opening... One Day.
One Day
Every time I look at the sky after the rain
I think of the crybaby I used to be
I was blindly chasing after someone's back
Saying "I want to be stronger"
Now faded into the wind is "thank you"
Am I getting stronger?
Since I haven't got an answer to that
I'll keep walking forward
So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious
The voice flowing inside of me
Always always supports me
Teasing rain will get in my way
Because I won't run away Oh
So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious
I believe in that future...
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it was said that this song is written by the artist with the message "protecting the things that are important to me".
Okay. Love the message. Wish I can do the same.
Every time I look at the sky after the rain
I think of the crybaby I used to be
I was blindly chasing after someone's back
Saying "I want to be stronger"
Now faded into the wind is "thank you"
Am I getting stronger?
Since I haven't got an answer to that
I'll keep walking forward
So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious
The voice flowing inside of me
Always always supports me
Teasing rain will get in my way
Because I won't run away Oh
So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious
I believe in that future...
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it was said that this song is written by the artist with the message "protecting the things that are important to me".
Okay. Love the message. Wish I can do the same.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Daang Matuwid pala ha... Hahahaha!
At ito pala ang tinatawag na daang matuwid. Napakagaling.
Mula sa balitang pinapangalandakan ni Kabayan sa radyo (wala pang mahanap na write-up tungkol dito), mukhang aktibo na ang BIR sa pagsasakatuparan ng kanilang tungkuling maabot ang target collection at makalikom ng malaking salapi mula sa buwis na ibinabayad ng mga mamamayan.
KAYA LANG, E 'BAT naman pati mga maliliit na manggagawa eh papatawan pa ng EVAT?
Sige, sabihin ng "nakikinabang" din sila diumano sa mga proyekto ng gobyerno. Eh bakit sa dinami-dami ng mga malalaking negosyante at propesyonal na kumikita ng milyon-milyon eh uunahin pa nilang kolektahan itong mga naghihikahos na nga sa buhay? Ay kainaman naman!
At kailangan pa daw mag-issue ng resibo ng mga tricycle/pedicab driver sa mga pasahero. (Facepalm!!!)
Ano ba ang kinikita ng mga driver/tindera at iba pang maliliit na negosyante/manggagawa kumpara sa sandamukal na salaping ibinubulsa ng mga mayayamang may-ari ng negosyo, mga accountant, abogado, IT experts, manager, artista, smugglers este yung mga negosyanteng madaming itinatago, at madami pang ibang mga "Bigtime" kumbaga?
Bakit hindi nila unahing habulin itong mga tax evader at kolektahan ng karampatang buwis iyong mga nalulunod sa pera? Ito ba ang hustisya? Ito ba ang daang matuwid? Ang kaya lang ba nilang pasunurin/pwersahing pasunurin ay itong mga nasa mababang antas ng labor force?
Kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap.
Eh pano kung mahirap ang kino-corrupt?
Yan yan. Umayos kayo.
Mula sa balitang pinapangalandakan ni Kabayan sa radyo (wala pang mahanap na write-up tungkol dito), mukhang aktibo na ang BIR sa pagsasakatuparan ng kanilang tungkuling maabot ang target collection at makalikom ng malaking salapi mula sa buwis na ibinabayad ng mga mamamayan.
KAYA LANG, E 'BAT naman pati mga maliliit na manggagawa eh papatawan pa ng EVAT?
Sige, sabihin ng "nakikinabang" din sila diumano sa mga proyekto ng gobyerno. Eh bakit sa dinami-dami ng mga malalaking negosyante at propesyonal na kumikita ng milyon-milyon eh uunahin pa nilang kolektahan itong mga naghihikahos na nga sa buhay? Ay kainaman naman!
At kailangan pa daw mag-issue ng resibo ng mga tricycle/pedicab driver sa mga pasahero. (Facepalm!!!)
Ano ba ang kinikita ng mga driver/tindera at iba pang maliliit na negosyante/manggagawa kumpara sa sandamukal na salaping ibinubulsa ng mga mayayamang may-ari ng negosyo, mga accountant, abogado, IT experts, manager, artista, smugglers este yung mga negosyanteng madaming itinatago, at madami pang ibang mga "Bigtime" kumbaga?
Bakit hindi nila unahing habulin itong mga tax evader at kolektahan ng karampatang buwis iyong mga nalulunod sa pera? Ito ba ang hustisya? Ito ba ang daang matuwid? Ang kaya lang ba nilang pasunurin/pwersahing pasunurin ay itong mga nasa mababang antas ng labor force?
Kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap.
Eh pano kung mahirap ang kino-corrupt?
Yan yan. Umayos kayo.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
On Change
“Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.” - quoting United States President Barrack Obama’s famous lines about change, it roots from the cliché that “change should start with ourselves”. It is not dependent upon some other external force. No one but ourselves can start the change we so desire.
Change has always been associated with new beginnings.
Whenever something new comes in, the populace always expects that the old system will be changed. The same can be said in the current political situation in the Philippines, wherein a new administration takes over from the former and quite old and infamous one. The rise of Noynoy Aquino as the newly-elected President of the Republic of the Philippines has brought hopes of the country to recover from its deep slump. I think majority, if not of those who voted in his favor sees him as the solution for the country’s traditional problems. “This guy is the legacy of the man who proved that the Filipinos are worth dying for and of the mother of democracy. He is surely capable of developing the country.” – This I think is what those people thought of him. With all due respect, I think otherwise, or should I say, I do not believe it. He might be a son by blood of those so-called “heroes” but that doesn’t necessarily mean that he can imbibe upon the people the same “charisma” or influence the same as his parents. He’ll have to do this in his own way, not just by being branded as the son. He must make a name for himself (which I think, slowly but surely, he’s working out on as of today). But regardless, can one man bring about the change in the society? I don’t think so.
As the above-quoted Obama line states, change is something that will not happen by virtue of other person or time. The message is clear: we should start with ourselves. We should not be waiting for some other person in some other time to make things happen for us. After all, we are living our own life. The fact that it is “exclusively ours” justifies the logic that we should be responsible enough to take care of it, bring about positive changes, and develop it by ourselves. Of course, outside help may be indispensable, but the focal point is it centers on the individual himself. So, talking about change in the larger context, this will mean that a newly installed leader cannot bring about the changes to the country demanded to him ALONE. As he once said, he is not Superman. As if Superman can solve the country’s century-old problems! No one can solve those alone, even if he possesses the highest form of magic or a body of steel.
Then, could this mean that change should start individually, then collectively? Might work.
People change because of some factors: other people or events that tend to influence their behavior, personality, or view of things. Influence from others is different from internal motivation. Although those people had contributed to the “change” in oneself, it can still be inferred that it originated from one’s own volition. The same can be said for the larger circle - the society. Though some other factors might trigger this change, the inherent capacity to do so belongs to the people constituting it.
Then, is it really necessary that something else occurs first before change can happen? It seems that we are always waiting for something unknown, some sort of a different stimulus, before we can realize that we have the ability to change. It may be the natural sequence of things; someone notices something about you, comments negatively or suggests to do an action about it, and in order to conform to that remark, you will try to change. Should things always be like this? We should “change” for “change” to happen. We should be aware enough of our “inner self’ so we will know what needs to be done, instead of depending upon others to point them out.
Nothing stays the same. Change is the only constant things in this world. You cannot step twice on the same river (Heraclitus). These are some of the most famous quotes about change. Among these, I find one that perfectly applies to the “change” I’m referring to in the previous paragraphs:
It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. – (James Gordon)
So, is it about preparedness to change? .
Yes, that’s one point, but that may not be enough. For every new beginning, we are filled with hope that we can finally make those changes happen. We are placing our hopes upon the occurrence of this “something new” believing that it will be the rallying point towards change. But are we prepared for it? Can we accept it immediately? Can we cope up as soon as it takes effect? Can we maintain it? And of course, can we contribute to it? There are still a lot of things to be considered. If so, then we must be ready for all the consequences the transformation might bring us.
I won’t let this end without mentioning one of the most inspiring lines from a man who I owe a great debt of gratitude. I have this instilled with me from the time he shared this insight to us until today. Unfortunately, it seems I have failed to live this up, but I am always trying to do it. These are the lines that I will keep as a guiding principle:
Today, I will start the change I want to see.
- Bro. Rafael Donato, FSC
Change has always been associated with new beginnings.
Whenever something new comes in, the populace always expects that the old system will be changed. The same can be said in the current political situation in the Philippines, wherein a new administration takes over from the former and quite old and infamous one. The rise of Noynoy Aquino as the newly-elected President of the Republic of the Philippines has brought hopes of the country to recover from its deep slump. I think majority, if not of those who voted in his favor sees him as the solution for the country’s traditional problems. “This guy is the legacy of the man who proved that the Filipinos are worth dying for and of the mother of democracy. He is surely capable of developing the country.” – This I think is what those people thought of him. With all due respect, I think otherwise, or should I say, I do not believe it. He might be a son by blood of those so-called “heroes” but that doesn’t necessarily mean that he can imbibe upon the people the same “charisma” or influence the same as his parents. He’ll have to do this in his own way, not just by being branded as the son. He must make a name for himself (which I think, slowly but surely, he’s working out on as of today). But regardless, can one man bring about the change in the society? I don’t think so.
As the above-quoted Obama line states, change is something that will not happen by virtue of other person or time. The message is clear: we should start with ourselves. We should not be waiting for some other person in some other time to make things happen for us. After all, we are living our own life. The fact that it is “exclusively ours” justifies the logic that we should be responsible enough to take care of it, bring about positive changes, and develop it by ourselves. Of course, outside help may be indispensable, but the focal point is it centers on the individual himself. So, talking about change in the larger context, this will mean that a newly installed leader cannot bring about the changes to the country demanded to him ALONE. As he once said, he is not Superman. As if Superman can solve the country’s century-old problems! No one can solve those alone, even if he possesses the highest form of magic or a body of steel.
Then, could this mean that change should start individually, then collectively? Might work.
People change because of some factors: other people or events that tend to influence their behavior, personality, or view of things. Influence from others is different from internal motivation. Although those people had contributed to the “change” in oneself, it can still be inferred that it originated from one’s own volition. The same can be said for the larger circle - the society. Though some other factors might trigger this change, the inherent capacity to do so belongs to the people constituting it.
Then, is it really necessary that something else occurs first before change can happen? It seems that we are always waiting for something unknown, some sort of a different stimulus, before we can realize that we have the ability to change. It may be the natural sequence of things; someone notices something about you, comments negatively or suggests to do an action about it, and in order to conform to that remark, you will try to change. Should things always be like this? We should “change” for “change” to happen. We should be aware enough of our “inner self’ so we will know what needs to be done, instead of depending upon others to point them out.
Nothing stays the same. Change is the only constant things in this world. You cannot step twice on the same river (Heraclitus). These are some of the most famous quotes about change. Among these, I find one that perfectly applies to the “change” I’m referring to in the previous paragraphs:
It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. – (James Gordon)
So, is it about preparedness to change? .
Yes, that’s one point, but that may not be enough. For every new beginning, we are filled with hope that we can finally make those changes happen. We are placing our hopes upon the occurrence of this “something new” believing that it will be the rallying point towards change. But are we prepared for it? Can we accept it immediately? Can we cope up as soon as it takes effect? Can we maintain it? And of course, can we contribute to it? There are still a lot of things to be considered. If so, then we must be ready for all the consequences the transformation might bring us.
I won’t let this end without mentioning one of the most inspiring lines from a man who I owe a great debt of gratitude. I have this instilled with me from the time he shared this insight to us until today. Unfortunately, it seems I have failed to live this up, but I am always trying to do it. These are the lines that I will keep as a guiding principle:
Today, I will start the change I want to see.
- Bro. Rafael Donato, FSC
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Deja Vu
How does it feel to be screamed at the top (or nearly) of somebody else's lungs?
- It feels great! At the least, this is what I expected to receive even before stepping inside the classroom.
For now, I am glad someone recognized how stupid I am.
I am entering ground zero with nothing but guts(and a bit of luck). But (and surely) it seems it wasn't enough.
I am fully aware that we are about to meet "gods" in that place called "hell". We've been warned about it years ago. (I can imagine my former "master" with his pronouncement: "I told you so".) So far, in my second week of classes, there's just one of those gods (errr, or just an apostle maybe). I am not afraid of these gods as long as I know that I have the weapons to neutralize them. Unfortunately,I am very far from reaching those high-powered weapons, only able to bring with me a stick which can barely scratch their gold-plated armors.
So, my first encounter (or should I say "reunion") with a god turned out to be a repeat of my very first actual meeting with such years back. It's obvious that I am not fully prepared for that. I only brought a moist matchstick with me: capable of bringing out sparks but failed to light the grand fire. At the end of the day, I'm worn out of the clash, not realizing that this is just the "initial conflict" of the story.
I am here to build my confidence (which I definitely lack). With this and much knowledge, I will get back to that battlefield and definitely ring the signal to counter-attack.
- It feels great! At the least, this is what I expected to receive even before stepping inside the classroom.
For now, I am glad someone recognized how stupid I am.
I am entering ground zero with nothing but guts(and a bit of luck). But (and surely) it seems it wasn't enough.
I am fully aware that we are about to meet "gods" in that place called "hell". We've been warned about it years ago. (I can imagine my former "master" with his pronouncement: "I told you so".) So far, in my second week of classes, there's just one of those gods (errr, or just an apostle maybe). I am not afraid of these gods as long as I know that I have the weapons to neutralize them. Unfortunately,I am very far from reaching those high-powered weapons, only able to bring with me a stick which can barely scratch their gold-plated armors.
So, my first encounter (or should I say "reunion") with a god turned out to be a repeat of my very first actual meeting with such years back. It's obvious that I am not fully prepared for that. I only brought a moist matchstick with me: capable of bringing out sparks but failed to light the grand fire. At the end of the day, I'm worn out of the clash, not realizing that this is just the "initial conflict" of the story.
I am here to build my confidence (which I definitely lack). With this and much knowledge, I will get back to that battlefield and definitely ring the signal to counter-attack.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Memorize not Understand?
So, despite the confusion three years ago:
http://baliwantunaan.blogspot.com/2009/09/changes-posted-in-fs-blog-may-15-2007.html
Here I am now - Threading the path I once thought of doesn't belong to me. To date, I am still unsure about this. Knowing that I have somehow degraded myself from a lot of activities other than mind-enriching ones(I guess reading manga counts as an exception, but work, yes), I continued walking the path of carnage. The outcome: a weaker me. Maybe it's just me, but it seems that I have lost my ability to quickly grasp things and memorize concepts. (one of the few I can be proud of... before) A good memory is what I need at present. I know it is always essential in studying, although a College Professor insisted before the need to "Analyze and not Memorize". Being his follower (and also 'coz I quite believe in the same), that quote has become a guide in my succeeding classes.
Here comes the "actual" experience. Upon my first step on ground zero, another master in the field made an opposite argument.
"Memorize, not understand".
This could mean literally, or it simply implies to give more priority in memorizing rather than understanding. Well, we all look at the same thing differently (I'm beginning to use this phrase quite often). It depends upon our interpretation, whether this will be construed strictly against us or liberally in favor of the other. [What the hell am I talking about?]
It's a long way to go. I could be derailed from this track, who knows? Might be voluntary or forcibly, whatever happens, I am bound to accept. But for the meantime, I'll persevere to keep in this track until that day comes [or does not come/ Here we go again, stipulating a resolutory condition].
Almost forgot what I need right now.
Read,read and read. Then memorize.
Capacity's running out, maybe I need a new hard drive.
http://baliwantunaan.blogspot.com/2009/09/changes-posted-in-fs-blog-may-15-2007.html
Here I am now - Threading the path I once thought of doesn't belong to me. To date, I am still unsure about this. Knowing that I have somehow degraded myself from a lot of activities other than mind-enriching ones(I guess reading manga counts as an exception, but work, yes), I continued walking the path of carnage. The outcome: a weaker me. Maybe it's just me, but it seems that I have lost my ability to quickly grasp things and memorize concepts. (one of the few I can be proud of... before) A good memory is what I need at present. I know it is always essential in studying, although a College Professor insisted before the need to "Analyze and not Memorize". Being his follower (and also 'coz I quite believe in the same), that quote has become a guide in my succeeding classes.
Here comes the "actual" experience. Upon my first step on ground zero, another master in the field made an opposite argument.
"Memorize, not understand".
This could mean literally, or it simply implies to give more priority in memorizing rather than understanding. Well, we all look at the same thing differently (I'm beginning to use this phrase quite often). It depends upon our interpretation, whether this will be construed strictly against us or liberally in favor of the other. [What the hell am I talking about?]
It's a long way to go. I could be derailed from this track, who knows? Might be voluntary or forcibly, whatever happens, I am bound to accept. But for the meantime, I'll persevere to keep in this track until that day comes [or does not come/ Here we go again, stipulating a resolutory condition].
Almost forgot what I need right now.
Read,read and read. Then memorize.
Capacity's running out, maybe I need a new hard drive.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Post .. To be updated . May 26, 2010.
Will try to update this post next month, another month, another, then a year, another year, and another... :D
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Pambihira!!!
Nakakahighblood ang mga balita ngayon. Talaga naman.
At minsan pa'y nagkaroon na naman ng Secretary of INJUSTICE!!!
Iba na talaga kapag tuta. Tsk tsk. Kabaligtaran kayo ni Hachiko! (pa-plug. ^_^ please do watch Hatchiko: A dog story. Just browse the net or look for your suking SM :D)
Ahmm, di pala, pareho pala sila in one way: LOYAL sa amo.
When does loyalty become a bad thing? - When it causes great harm and suffering to the common good.
At sa pinakahuling binitiwang pahayag ng mamang ewan, dapat lang siguro na mag-bukas na ng entablado para sa isang madugong labanan para sa katarungan. Patuloy na lang ba tayong aasang mabibigay ang Katarungan sa lahat kung ang mismong kamay na naglalapat nito ay ang kabaligtaran ang ginagawa?
Susmaryosep!!!
Tama na ang pang-AAGRAbyado!!! Akala mo kung sinong magaling. Kwestyonable na nga ang posisyon. Nabigyan lang ng konting "kapangyarihan" akala mo na kung sino umasta. Ganito na ba talaga ang mga tagapagtanggol ng katarungan?
Epic Fail!!!
At minsan pa'y nagkaroon na naman ng Secretary of INJUSTICE!!!
Iba na talaga kapag tuta. Tsk tsk. Kabaligtaran kayo ni Hachiko! (pa-plug. ^_^ please do watch Hatchiko: A dog story. Just browse the net or look for your suking SM :D)
Ahmm, di pala, pareho pala sila in one way: LOYAL sa amo.
When does loyalty become a bad thing? - When it causes great harm and suffering to the common good.
At sa pinakahuling binitiwang pahayag ng mamang ewan, dapat lang siguro na mag-bukas na ng entablado para sa isang madugong labanan para sa katarungan. Patuloy na lang ba tayong aasang mabibigay ang Katarungan sa lahat kung ang mismong kamay na naglalapat nito ay ang kabaligtaran ang ginagawa?
Susmaryosep!!!
Tama na ang pang-AAGRAbyado!!! Akala mo kung sinong magaling. Kwestyonable na nga ang posisyon. Nabigyan lang ng konting "kapangyarihan" akala mo na kung sino umasta. Ganito na ba talaga ang mga tagapagtanggol ng katarungan?
Epic Fail!!!
Monday, March 29, 2010
Way To Go!
OG OT YAW! WAY TO GO rather :D
These words weren't simply an inscription in the (Graduation) Cake. It means a lot, for her at least.
---{[Here I go again, speaking/writing out on behalf of others, well, this has been a sickness of mine since birth. Pardon me if I've been too noisy around here. Anyways, you won't hear anything from me in person about topics like these. As much as I like, I want to make this from the First Person point of view. Knowing "a bit" of you, I don't think you'll entertain the idea of creating posts like these nowadays. Unfortunately, it seems that this will end up as another self-centered post. And for that, I am requesting for your utmost tolerance and kind understanding.]}
You finally had that momentous march (I think you've been so longing for). It has been a long trip, but we're not done yet. Just a few steps away, you'll achieve the other milestone you so desire. I'm pretty sure you'll bet everything you've got for that goal. In less than a year, you could have earned your second and more fulfilling college degree, the one that will to lead you to brighter opportunities.
Nothing else could be more fulfilling for parents to see their children walking down the aisle, heading towards the stage to receive their hard-earned diploma. That is a moment when parents can't be any prouder for their daughters. Talking about reaping the fruits of all the hard work. That definitely was a walk to remember.
I have always believed in you. You're much better than me, I know you are (not much of a comparison, it's just that I want to show you how GOOD you are.. [[am I too defensive?:D Argh! Will I ever make a serious post here?]]) You're even better at me at this: writing/posting (which I consider as my only talent(???)) You've got a lot of good points. Hmmm, maybe there were just times that you lack motivation. Just look around (and on your phone), and you'll find that you're surrounded. You've got an overwhelming source of motivation and love. No need for other considerations (Appearance Fees and the like... Am I over the limit?:Pv )
Keep moving forward. They're just beside you along the way.
Nothing else to say......
"Congratulations!!! I'm so proud of you! You did it!" I never mentioned it once right? :D
Feel free to disturb me anytime. My lines are always open. I am your family's adopted relative after all. :D:D:D:D
Still a long way to go. Let's meet at the end of the road.
These words weren't simply an inscription in the (Graduation) Cake. It means a lot, for her at least.
---{[Here I go again, speaking/writing out on behalf of others, well, this has been a sickness of mine since birth. Pardon me if I've been too noisy around here. Anyways, you won't hear anything from me in person about topics like these. As much as I like, I want to make this from the First Person point of view. Knowing "a bit" of you, I don't think you'll entertain the idea of creating posts like these nowadays. Unfortunately, it seems that this will end up as another self-centered post. And for that, I am requesting for your utmost tolerance and kind understanding.]}
You finally had that momentous march (I think you've been so longing for). It has been a long trip, but we're not done yet. Just a few steps away, you'll achieve the other milestone you so desire. I'm pretty sure you'll bet everything you've got for that goal. In less than a year, you could have earned your second and more fulfilling college degree, the one that will to lead you to brighter opportunities.
Nothing else could be more fulfilling for parents to see their children walking down the aisle, heading towards the stage to receive their hard-earned diploma. That is a moment when parents can't be any prouder for their daughters. Talking about reaping the fruits of all the hard work. That definitely was a walk to remember.
I have always believed in you. You're much better than me, I know you are (not much of a comparison, it's just that I want to show you how GOOD you are.. [[am I too defensive?:D Argh! Will I ever make a serious post here?]]) You're even better at me at this: writing/posting (which I consider as my only talent(???)) You've got a lot of good points. Hmmm, maybe there were just times that you lack motivation. Just look around (and on your phone), and you'll find that you're surrounded. You've got an overwhelming source of motivation and love. No need for other considerations (Appearance Fees and the like... Am I over the limit?:Pv )
Keep moving forward. They're just beside you along the way.
Nothing else to say......
"Congratulations!!! I'm so proud of you! You did it!" I never mentioned it once right? :D
Feel free to disturb me anytime. My lines are always open. I am your family's adopted relative after all. :D:D:D:D
Still a long way to go. Let's meet at the end of the road.
Weekender
Speaking about the best weekends... I just had one.
My first time in Bicolandia!
Seeing with my own eyes the once perfect cone...
Bearing witness to a special child's rather a special friend's remarkable moment...
Definitely one of the best!
Calendar Marked!
My first time in Bicolandia!
Seeing with my own eyes the once perfect cone...
Bearing witness to a special child's rather a special friend's remarkable moment...
Definitely one of the best!
Calendar Marked!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Ang linaw linaw na bagay pinapalabo...
Hay! Kainaman naman na! Bakit ganoon? Ang ganda ganda ng paliwanag hindi pa agad nakuha ang ibig sabihin! Naturingan pa naman silang mga "eksperto" sa ganoong usapin.
Oo, siguro nga iba't -iba ang pang-unawa nga mga tao sa isang bagay. Tinitingnan natin ang isang bagay at binigyan ng magkakaibang kahulugan. Ang mga interpretasyon natin ang magtatalo, ang magpapanglaban. Matapos man ang usaping ito, may manalo man o matalo, mananatili pa din ang naggigiriang mga opinyon hinggil dito.
Nirerespeto naman namin ang inyong desisyon. Syempre, kayo ang otoridad, nasa inyo ang kapangyarihan at ang huling sabi. Pero sana man lang, bigyan niyo ng pagkakataon ang karamihan na ipaabot ang kanilang pananaw. Madami kaming nangangailangan ng "katotohanan, tama at makatarungang desisyon. Wag nyo ng palabuin ang isang bagay na maliwanag pa sa sikat ng araw.
1987 Philippine Constitution : Article VII, Section 15.
Two months immediately before the next presidential elections and up to the end of his term, a President or Acting President shall not make appointments, except temporary appointments to executive positions when continued vacancies therein will prejudice public service or endanger public safety."
Malinaw na nakasaad sa Konstitusyon na HINDI MAAARING MAGTALAGA sa kahit anong posisyon ang Pangulo dalawang buwan bago ang susunod na halalan. Walang nabanggit na hindi nasasakop ng pagbabawal na ito ang pagtatalaga sa Hudikatura. "Expressio unius est exclusio alterius" - The expression of one thing is the exclusion of another. Mismong ang mga taong nasa likod na ng pagsusulat ng kasalukuyang konstitusyon ang nagpatunay na walang malabong kahulugan ang nasabing probisyon. Ang Korte Suprema na din mismo ang nagpatunay nito sa isang nakaraang desisyon noong kapanahunan ni Pangulong Ramos. Bakit nila babaligtarin ang nakaraan nilang desisyon? May nakita ba silang mali dito?
Sa pinakahuling desisyon ng Korte Suprema, pinagtibay nila na maaaring magtalaga ang Pangulo ng kapalit ng magreretirong Punong Hukom, bagaman nasasakop na ito ng constitutional ban. Isang midnight appointment na nag-aambang maghudyat ng pagkagapi ng katarungan at pagtatakip ng mga bahid ng mga korupsyon sa gobyerno. Wag nating hayaang habambuhay na lang tayong magbubulag bulagan sa katotohanan. Wag nating hayaang tanggalan tayo ng karapatang magmatyag at idulog ang "katarungan" sa mga taong nararapat lamang na makatanggap nito. May magagawa tayo. Di na tayo magpapasiil.
Hayaan nating mangibabaw ang katotohanan at ang nararapat.
Oo, siguro nga iba't -iba ang pang-unawa nga mga tao sa isang bagay. Tinitingnan natin ang isang bagay at binigyan ng magkakaibang kahulugan. Ang mga interpretasyon natin ang magtatalo, ang magpapanglaban. Matapos man ang usaping ito, may manalo man o matalo, mananatili pa din ang naggigiriang mga opinyon hinggil dito.
Nirerespeto naman namin ang inyong desisyon. Syempre, kayo ang otoridad, nasa inyo ang kapangyarihan at ang huling sabi. Pero sana man lang, bigyan niyo ng pagkakataon ang karamihan na ipaabot ang kanilang pananaw. Madami kaming nangangailangan ng "katotohanan, tama at makatarungang desisyon. Wag nyo ng palabuin ang isang bagay na maliwanag pa sa sikat ng araw.
1987 Philippine Constitution : Article VII, Section 15.
Two months immediately before the next presidential elections and up to the end of his term, a President or Acting President shall not make appointments, except temporary appointments to executive positions when continued vacancies therein will prejudice public service or endanger public safety."
Malinaw na nakasaad sa Konstitusyon na HINDI MAAARING MAGTALAGA sa kahit anong posisyon ang Pangulo dalawang buwan bago ang susunod na halalan. Walang nabanggit na hindi nasasakop ng pagbabawal na ito ang pagtatalaga sa Hudikatura. "Expressio unius est exclusio alterius" - The expression of one thing is the exclusion of another. Mismong ang mga taong nasa likod na ng pagsusulat ng kasalukuyang konstitusyon ang nagpatunay na walang malabong kahulugan ang nasabing probisyon. Ang Korte Suprema na din mismo ang nagpatunay nito sa isang nakaraang desisyon noong kapanahunan ni Pangulong Ramos. Bakit nila babaligtarin ang nakaraan nilang desisyon? May nakita ba silang mali dito?
Sa pinakahuling desisyon ng Korte Suprema, pinagtibay nila na maaaring magtalaga ang Pangulo ng kapalit ng magreretirong Punong Hukom, bagaman nasasakop na ito ng constitutional ban. Isang midnight appointment na nag-aambang maghudyat ng pagkagapi ng katarungan at pagtatakip ng mga bahid ng mga korupsyon sa gobyerno. Wag nating hayaang habambuhay na lang tayong magbubulag bulagan sa katotohanan. Wag nating hayaang tanggalan tayo ng karapatang magmatyag at idulog ang "katarungan" sa mga taong nararapat lamang na makatanggap nito. May magagawa tayo. Di na tayo magpapasiil.
Hayaan nating mangibabaw ang katotohanan at ang nararapat.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
LSS : Burnout!!!
Burnout by Sugrafree
O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali
CHORUS
O, kay tagal din kitang minahal
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Teka muna, teka lang, kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay
[Repeat CHORUS]
Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita
'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama
O, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin
===
Sapul!!!
No more comments...
O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali
CHORUS
O, kay tagal din kitang minahal
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Teka muna, teka lang, kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay
[Repeat CHORUS]
Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita
'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama
O, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin
===
Sapul!!!
No more comments...
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
A year it has been..
Just for the sake of posting to remember that day, commemorate rather.
March 23, 2009.
Well, it's been a year since my family was lesser by one, the foundation. Yes, I know this is not the right place for me to be saying something like this. But this is the way I am, this is how I can best express how I feel and what I think. Anyways, just wanna see how things are a year after the parting time.
(Am I really emotional? Yeah, I think so.)
This time last year (or lets adjust it a few days, hmmm, around March 15), I went back home for the second time in two months after I started working here in Paranaque. Those were the days that I'm much delighted to see my whole family together. Homesickness, I guess. I was still at the adjusting stage of "living independently" from my parents. I have seen the changes myself back then. I'm no longer the youngest child who used to call Inay and Tatay to ask for everything I want and need. I felt the same change with them as well. Our conversations had turned into a different dimension, as if they are talking with a "grown up". After all, it was my choice to fend for myself, work away from them despite their strong opposition, especially my Father. We had heated discussions back then regarding that topic. They just wanted me to work somewhere in our place. I already gave them what they want when I once "tried" to work in a "dont-know-what-kind-of-office-as-that" and a call center by the city. But since I really dont want to be in that field, I immediately left to find another one, something I have an interest with. I've been planning to work in the Metro years back in college. I wanted to be independent, to decide for myself and experience the real world by myself. I wanted to grow, be mature and professional - These things I cannot see into reality if I will remain in the province, working underemployed for companies I dont care a jot for. In the end, they gave me what I want. With a smiling face, a hopeful mind, and a broken heart, I left home to find my luck in the Metro.
Barely three weeks after I first left, I went home for a visit. I am overjoyed to see them - my nephews and nieces, my sister, Inay, and Tatay. It feels like a year since my departure. And yet, it was soothing to have them around me, treating me as a VIP. I initially intended to go home once month, and that's just fine with them. My second visit, a day before our barangay fiesta, March 15, was quite much memorable. Though we will not be having a lot of visitors during that time, we still had those mini preparations for the coming festivity. I am more than cheered up seeing how Tatay and Inay had that funny conversation while preparing the embutido. My father, having had a mild stroke attack a year ago, cannot properly tie the ends as his left hand have gone quite dysfunctional. My mother, a beginner in cooking such dish, cannot do it properly as well. They had their laughs while working on that one as me and my sister kept taunting them on how they will finish the task. That was I guess, one of the usual moments of couples who have grown to become friends years after their marriage. I'm sure they had a millions of the same gags before, but seeing them playing that time is somehow nostalgic, not knowing that it will be one of their last...
Come Fiesta and we had the small celebration. We have quite a few dishes to serve but unlike the previous years, our table is much smaller. I had a dose of the food early on coz by late afternoon I'll be back to Paranaque for work. My father had a "tour" of our neighbors, taking one plate after another. He really enjoyed that one, I guess. I stayed home the rest of the day, waiting for visitors and taking a meal hour by hour. By afternoon, I had departed, taking with me a piece of the embutido my parents worked so hard for. :D That was the last meal Tatay made for me...
Three days after, I was awaken by a text message from my sister telling that my father was brought to the hospital. I don't know the circumstances but she said that they can speak with him and it was unlike the mild stroke attack he had last year. I was somehow relieved by then, but still worried since I'm desperate for news. The day after, I went to the hospital to see my father in ICU, can pretty talk well and full(or should I say half) of himself. As I went before him, he started talking as if he was already giving me his last pieces of advice. He told me to be thrifty, spend my money wisely and save for the future. He even opened the topic on the possibility of me getting back to school. I just said not to worry about me and that we'll passed this one like before. I never really cared for money. I just wanted to bail him out of the hospital and walk and ride our tricycle again and had a run with me...
[the rest.. I think I had it posted in a different entry.. here - http://baliwantunaan.blogspot.com/2009/09/special-day-tomorrow-tribute-for-two.html ]
So, it's almost a year after that. Come Tuesday then it's exactly a year. How have we fared a year after he went on the other side of the rainbow? A year after his white balloon had flown away from us, heading to that shining ray of light?
To be honest we had gotten over that feeling. We are done with the "depressed" and "adjusting stage". (If writing this one or keeping this in my mind for quite some time would claim otherwise, then it's wrong, but I'm certain that I'm more that okay right now, fully accepted that he left us and is now on better hands). Maybe, it is a continuous adjustment stage. We have moved on. That page has been marked in our lives, we have turned over a new one, but keeping that single page in the footnotes. Though the same may be true, I hate to admit that we are far worse right now after his departure: Worse in the sense that we barely see each other day by day. We are parted by distance, and also by walls. Since that day, I have been going home on a weekly basis. Then I had a temporarily stayed in Marikina for almost two months, expecting that Inay and I will be staying there for a long time (as one of Tatay's wishes Inay to stay with me as I work here). The same never materialized, so I went back to my "home". Keeping ourselves busy with different tasks (Inay working out on the papers, me and my siblings with our jobs), we have somehow gotten over the feeling of lost. Once or twice a month we kept visiting his tomb. Inay kept telling her apo's to talk with their Lolo. We are one with the thought that it's just like Tatay was just somewhere else, abroad in particular. He's just watching over us, keeping his "reminders" whenever we had done mistakes or something he against his will. Once in a while I have dreams about him, just like he is just around, alive and kicking. The same goes with Inay and my sister. We kept having those dreams of him. The same happens whenever we face some difficulty or having conflict with one another. For a moment or two we were closely knitted after his passing. Though there are still those instances that we fail to keep in touch with one another, we are somehow making up for lost time whenever we are having those little hang-ups and window shopping.
But right now, those ties were somehow loosening. We are now separated by seas, by walls, and by the unknown. I barely had news about one, I wanna give him a hard punch when I see him. The other, she seems to have enjoyed herself with the company of other people. I know I have my shortcomings for not being so passionate or not showing my care for them. But hey, is that enough reason to keep us waiting for weeks or months for her to show up to me? I failed to follow one of Tatay's last advices. I barely saved a cent in my pocket. Someone beat me up! (JK)
How I wish that he could show up in our dreams at the same time with the same message. If not in our dreams, show up when we're wide awake. We are not asking much from you, all your life we've been seeking your guidance. Just keep us as one, as a FAMILY that we once are. You may not be physically present, but in our hearts, we know that you are with us. Keep reminding us to love each other, to never fail to keep in touch, and to be a Family. I know it's up to US to do all these, but please, heed my request:
Keep our deal sealed.
And also, keep watching us.
Uhmmm, if it's not too much...
Can you cook me another embutido? :D We missed it. :)
March 23, 2009.
Well, it's been a year since my family was lesser by one, the foundation. Yes, I know this is not the right place for me to be saying something like this. But this is the way I am, this is how I can best express how I feel and what I think. Anyways, just wanna see how things are a year after the parting time.
(Am I really emotional? Yeah, I think so.)
This time last year (or lets adjust it a few days, hmmm, around March 15), I went back home for the second time in two months after I started working here in Paranaque. Those were the days that I'm much delighted to see my whole family together. Homesickness, I guess. I was still at the adjusting stage of "living independently" from my parents. I have seen the changes myself back then. I'm no longer the youngest child who used to call Inay and Tatay to ask for everything I want and need. I felt the same change with them as well. Our conversations had turned into a different dimension, as if they are talking with a "grown up". After all, it was my choice to fend for myself, work away from them despite their strong opposition, especially my Father. We had heated discussions back then regarding that topic. They just wanted me to work somewhere in our place. I already gave them what they want when I once "tried" to work in a "dont-know-what-kind-of-office-as-that" and a call center by the city. But since I really dont want to be in that field, I immediately left to find another one, something I have an interest with. I've been planning to work in the Metro years back in college. I wanted to be independent, to decide for myself and experience the real world by myself. I wanted to grow, be mature and professional - These things I cannot see into reality if I will remain in the province, working underemployed for companies I dont care a jot for. In the end, they gave me what I want. With a smiling face, a hopeful mind, and a broken heart, I left home to find my luck in the Metro.
Barely three weeks after I first left, I went home for a visit. I am overjoyed to see them - my nephews and nieces, my sister, Inay, and Tatay. It feels like a year since my departure. And yet, it was soothing to have them around me, treating me as a VIP. I initially intended to go home once month, and that's just fine with them. My second visit, a day before our barangay fiesta, March 15, was quite much memorable. Though we will not be having a lot of visitors during that time, we still had those mini preparations for the coming festivity. I am more than cheered up seeing how Tatay and Inay had that funny conversation while preparing the embutido. My father, having had a mild stroke attack a year ago, cannot properly tie the ends as his left hand have gone quite dysfunctional. My mother, a beginner in cooking such dish, cannot do it properly as well. They had their laughs while working on that one as me and my sister kept taunting them on how they will finish the task. That was I guess, one of the usual moments of couples who have grown to become friends years after their marriage. I'm sure they had a millions of the same gags before, but seeing them playing that time is somehow nostalgic, not knowing that it will be one of their last...
Come Fiesta and we had the small celebration. We have quite a few dishes to serve but unlike the previous years, our table is much smaller. I had a dose of the food early on coz by late afternoon I'll be back to Paranaque for work. My father had a "tour" of our neighbors, taking one plate after another. He really enjoyed that one, I guess. I stayed home the rest of the day, waiting for visitors and taking a meal hour by hour. By afternoon, I had departed, taking with me a piece of the embutido my parents worked so hard for. :D That was the last meal Tatay made for me...
Three days after, I was awaken by a text message from my sister telling that my father was brought to the hospital. I don't know the circumstances but she said that they can speak with him and it was unlike the mild stroke attack he had last year. I was somehow relieved by then, but still worried since I'm desperate for news. The day after, I went to the hospital to see my father in ICU, can pretty talk well and full(or should I say half) of himself. As I went before him, he started talking as if he was already giving me his last pieces of advice. He told me to be thrifty, spend my money wisely and save for the future. He even opened the topic on the possibility of me getting back to school. I just said not to worry about me and that we'll passed this one like before. I never really cared for money. I just wanted to bail him out of the hospital and walk and ride our tricycle again and had a run with me...
[the rest.. I think I had it posted in a different entry.. here - http://baliwantunaan.blogspot.com/2009/09/special-day-tomorrow-tribute-for-two.html ]
So, it's almost a year after that. Come Tuesday then it's exactly a year. How have we fared a year after he went on the other side of the rainbow? A year after his white balloon had flown away from us, heading to that shining ray of light?
To be honest we had gotten over that feeling. We are done with the "depressed" and "adjusting stage". (If writing this one or keeping this in my mind for quite some time would claim otherwise, then it's wrong, but I'm certain that I'm more that okay right now, fully accepted that he left us and is now on better hands). Maybe, it is a continuous adjustment stage. We have moved on. That page has been marked in our lives, we have turned over a new one, but keeping that single page in the footnotes. Though the same may be true, I hate to admit that we are far worse right now after his departure: Worse in the sense that we barely see each other day by day. We are parted by distance, and also by walls. Since that day, I have been going home on a weekly basis. Then I had a temporarily stayed in Marikina for almost two months, expecting that Inay and I will be staying there for a long time (as one of Tatay's wishes Inay to stay with me as I work here). The same never materialized, so I went back to my "home". Keeping ourselves busy with different tasks (Inay working out on the papers, me and my siblings with our jobs), we have somehow gotten over the feeling of lost. Once or twice a month we kept visiting his tomb. Inay kept telling her apo's to talk with their Lolo. We are one with the thought that it's just like Tatay was just somewhere else, abroad in particular. He's just watching over us, keeping his "reminders" whenever we had done mistakes or something he against his will. Once in a while I have dreams about him, just like he is just around, alive and kicking. The same goes with Inay and my sister. We kept having those dreams of him. The same happens whenever we face some difficulty or having conflict with one another. For a moment or two we were closely knitted after his passing. Though there are still those instances that we fail to keep in touch with one another, we are somehow making up for lost time whenever we are having those little hang-ups and window shopping.
But right now, those ties were somehow loosening. We are now separated by seas, by walls, and by the unknown. I barely had news about one, I wanna give him a hard punch when I see him. The other, she seems to have enjoyed herself with the company of other people. I know I have my shortcomings for not being so passionate or not showing my care for them. But hey, is that enough reason to keep us waiting for weeks or months for her to show up to me? I failed to follow one of Tatay's last advices. I barely saved a cent in my pocket. Someone beat me up! (JK)
How I wish that he could show up in our dreams at the same time with the same message. If not in our dreams, show up when we're wide awake. We are not asking much from you, all your life we've been seeking your guidance. Just keep us as one, as a FAMILY that we once are. You may not be physically present, but in our hearts, we know that you are with us. Keep reminding us to love each other, to never fail to keep in touch, and to be a Family. I know it's up to US to do all these, but please, heed my request:
Keep our deal sealed.
And also, keep watching us.
Uhmmm, if it's not too much...
Can you cook me another embutido? :D We missed it. :)
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
ChatChatChat
Now my views about chat huh? Yeah, better place it here.
Chat, for me, is an outlet for revealing someone's personality, though it be the real or hidden in the eyes of "real" people around a person. You can make you own rules, clans, families, and so on and so forth. You can talk about anything, Yes, ANYTHING, with or without limitations. That's why I think some really "exploit" or use this to their advantage. Exploit, in the sense that they gain benefits from chatting. An extension of one's self. This is chat.
Most chatters join clans to feel "security", be identified, and also for their sense of belongingness to be fulfilled: to establish relationships where one can assume a role (husband and wife, father, mother, brother sister, happily brush your teeth ^_^). Yes, assume. This could be good in shaping/revealing his/her personality. They establish their own rules, call themselves "this" and "that" to portray themselves, or someone else who they really wanna be.They are the authority here. While for some (or perhaps the majority), they enjoy being in these families. I would also want to be a member of these groups, but just as a bystander. I want to mingle with others, join conversations, play games and the like. Of course, I want "unity" here, but there are just some things which I think are to silly for me to do (using whatever names and wearing "clan uniforms", well, I am the captain of my self. ).
Some chatters prefer to abide by their own rules (me included). There was a point when I wanted to chat just so I can say "I belong". Later I realized that I have other needs to fulfill. I need friends. And so it was all that I wanted here. Chat has been my outlet for all the time that I've been alone. Here there's no one who can boss me around. That's why I hate it when somebody assumes he's higher than other, that he has more privileges over others. I hate joining clans for they impose their own rules. Yes, sure, go on with what you want. The hell I care. I dont want to wear those so-called "uniforms". It may be called your "rules". Yes, you are the authority. Yes, I dont follow those simple rules. This is because I don't want to. I am here to chat and enjoy, to meet new friends. Call me stupid or idiot or (hmm, what is the english term for Pasaway?^_^ deviant, violator, offender, what?), but I will live my life as I want to. This is my escape to the real rules of the world. By damn I will not let follow any other rule except what I think is right and proper to well-established "rules of law and morality" (though sometimes I violate them myself). It doesn't necessarily mean that I don't want to be ordered around. Well, somehow like that. But what I really wanted here is FREEDOM. Freedom with responsibility and discernment, that is. (that's why I wanna become the Pirate King, to be the man with the most Freedom in this world :D See you in Final Island, Monkey D. Luffy . One Piece Fan here folks:D)
There are those who have started working out romantic relationships through chat. This works the same as textmates who then "falls in love with each other" after some time. Hmmm. My stand here: I don't believe in relationships which are "pure chat" and "chat alone". Yes, I agree that you may start relationships here, you may meet interesting people, know and eventually fall for them. But keeping these relationships within the bounds of the electronic world, this I don't think is healthy. Not for being a bitter who has not experienced the same both in real and "virtually", this is just what I believe in. It will be too difficult for one to hold on to such relationships. It may be possible for some. My point is, having "physical connection/contact/communication" still makes the difference. I don't see anything wrong with starting relationships through chat and the like. It 's just like long distance relationships. What matters here is how you sustain the same. And as for me, it is always good, and almost imperative, to build these relationships "for real". Anyways, I have welcomed myself for opportunities to meet someone interesting here as well :P.
There are some who are called "Pampam": Flooders, Trolls, and the like. They usually disturb the "peaceful and innocent chatters" by blocking their means of a clear conversation. I've heard DJ Tado (brewrats! Tama!) used to do the same as a form of relaxation. Well, I can't blame them. There are those who want to do things which will bring them "pleasure" despite the fact that they are actually causing somebody else's discomfort. No comment here. I don't wanna offend them, we all have different mindsets here. Let them be. Let them be the terrorists who wants to cause upheaval just to attain their personal goals. Let them be the tyrants who continue to oppress it's people for their own benefit. (*evil grin)( God please forgive them for they do not know what they are doing^_^.)
Again, there's Freedom here.
This is, my opinion. I don't know how you define Chat and it's implication in your life. After all, "We may look at the same thing and see it differently.", right?
Chat, for me, is an outlet for revealing someone's personality, though it be the real or hidden in the eyes of "real" people around a person. You can make you own rules, clans, families, and so on and so forth. You can talk about anything, Yes, ANYTHING, with or without limitations. That's why I think some really "exploit" or use this to their advantage. Exploit, in the sense that they gain benefits from chatting. An extension of one's self. This is chat.
Most chatters join clans to feel "security", be identified, and also for their sense of belongingness to be fulfilled: to establish relationships where one can assume a role (husband and wife, father, mother, brother sister, happily brush your teeth ^_^). Yes, assume. This could be good in shaping/revealing his/her personality. They establish their own rules, call themselves "this" and "that" to portray themselves, or someone else who they really wanna be.They are the authority here. While for some (or perhaps the majority), they enjoy being in these families. I would also want to be a member of these groups, but just as a bystander. I want to mingle with others, join conversations, play games and the like. Of course, I want "unity" here, but there are just some things which I think are to silly for me to do (using whatever names and wearing "clan uniforms", well, I am the captain of my self. ).
Some chatters prefer to abide by their own rules (me included). There was a point when I wanted to chat just so I can say "I belong". Later I realized that I have other needs to fulfill. I need friends. And so it was all that I wanted here. Chat has been my outlet for all the time that I've been alone. Here there's no one who can boss me around. That's why I hate it when somebody assumes he's higher than other, that he has more privileges over others. I hate joining clans for they impose their own rules. Yes, sure, go on with what you want. The hell I care. I dont want to wear those so-called "uniforms". It may be called your "rules". Yes, you are the authority. Yes, I dont follow those simple rules. This is because I don't want to. I am here to chat and enjoy, to meet new friends. Call me stupid or idiot or (hmm, what is the english term for Pasaway?^_^ deviant, violator, offender, what?), but I will live my life as I want to. This is my escape to the real rules of the world. By damn I will not let follow any other rule except what I think is right and proper to well-established "rules of law and morality" (though sometimes I violate them myself). It doesn't necessarily mean that I don't want to be ordered around. Well, somehow like that. But what I really wanted here is FREEDOM. Freedom with responsibility and discernment, that is. (that's why I wanna become the Pirate King, to be the man with the most Freedom in this world :D See you in Final Island, Monkey D. Luffy . One Piece Fan here folks:D)
There are those who have started working out romantic relationships through chat. This works the same as textmates who then "falls in love with each other" after some time. Hmmm. My stand here: I don't believe in relationships which are "pure chat" and "chat alone". Yes, I agree that you may start relationships here, you may meet interesting people, know and eventually fall for them. But keeping these relationships within the bounds of the electronic world, this I don't think is healthy. Not for being a bitter who has not experienced the same both in real and "virtually", this is just what I believe in. It will be too difficult for one to hold on to such relationships. It may be possible for some. My point is, having "physical connection/contact/communication" still makes the difference. I don't see anything wrong with starting relationships through chat and the like. It 's just like long distance relationships. What matters here is how you sustain the same. And as for me, it is always good, and almost imperative, to build these relationships "for real". Anyways, I have welcomed myself for opportunities to meet someone interesting here as well :P.
There are some who are called "Pampam": Flooders, Trolls, and the like. They usually disturb the "peaceful and innocent chatters" by blocking their means of a clear conversation. I've heard DJ Tado (brewrats! Tama!) used to do the same as a form of relaxation. Well, I can't blame them. There are those who want to do things which will bring them "pleasure" despite the fact that they are actually causing somebody else's discomfort. No comment here. I don't wanna offend them, we all have different mindsets here. Let them be. Let them be the terrorists who wants to cause upheaval just to attain their personal goals. Let them be the tyrants who continue to oppress it's people for their own benefit. (*evil grin)( God please forgive them for they do not know what they are doing^_^.)
Again, there's Freedom here.
This is, my opinion. I don't know how you define Chat and it's implication in your life. After all, "We may look at the same thing and see it differently.", right?
ShinKayCoy :D
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A day with Mardz and Kwek =P
Heto na naman ang isang "katha" na ginawang negotiable instrument.
"Pay to X or order the amount of P _ _ _ _.__ upon demand." (Nagcite pa ng example mali naman. Ahahaha. Really need Memory Aid.)
In other words, here is a blog entry by demand. Though the same is not necessary due to the author's free and continuing consent (tama ba definition ko? Tsk. Fail. Palpak na talaga ang utak ko.) Anyways, let's make this a decent post. (decent pero puro kalokohan ang laman)
I should mark this day in my calendar. Sabit lang naman ako sa lakad na 'to, pero enjoy naman talaga. Full of first's 'ika nga nila. Enumerate:
1. First time nakapunta sa MEGAMOL. At ganyan talaga ang spelling. Congratulations Promdi!Ganap ka nang sibilisado!
Anu pa ba?
2. First time nakaorder ng matagal ko ng kinatatakaman na KFC Hawaiian Twister (Akala ko kung anong lumpia o shawarma yun sa mga commercial. Sa Wrap! Kwek next time ka na lang ha? Haha)
3. At syempre, first time na nakipagmeet sa mga magaganda, mababait at ever reliable na mga chat friends/buddies (anlaki dapat ng tip ko sa inyo para dito).
Dami kong side comments na nasa (close open) parenthesis. (Di daw to necessary sabi ni Bob Ong sa Stainless Longganisa). (Eh ano ngayon?) Walang basagan ng trip!
Wrap up na :)
Wala na naman akong masasabi eh. Ahaha. Tama na yang pang intro.
This day will always be remembered; at least, by myself (at siguro pati yung dalawang bida sa post na to... Mardz and Kwek). Teka wala pa akong naibibida sa inyo ah. Okei. magseryoso tayo ng konte kahit hindi bagay. :B,
Sa halos isang taon kong pagtahak sa landas ng elektronikong pakikisalamuha (nosebleed, di ko matagalog ang virtual, social networking, otherwise known as chat sa Uzzap), ito pa lang ang unang beses na nakipag EB (not more of an EB, parang usual trip nga lang) ako sa mga chatmates ko. Kahit dun sa pinagkatandaan kong mga chatroom eh wala man lang akong nakadaupang-palad. Andun na yung mga virtual nanay, anak, ate, mare, apo, kapatid, manager, spiritual adviser, asawa este wala pala, I never had a chance to meet them in person. May ilan sa kanila na gusto ko talagang makausap pero dahil sa 'sangmilyong kadahilanan, hindi natupad ang minimithi kong kahit man lang isang minutong totoong talastasan. (.. seryoso na talaga yan, di ko na ma-gets ang mga term na ginagamit ko:D..). Distance, time, availability, insecurity ( oo, ayoko iharap ang pagkasama kong mukha sa iba). The list goes on and on. Pero sa mga bida sa post na 'to, I thank God at syempre sila for making this happen :).
Mardz :D -=-=-=-=-=-
Gusto ko talagang ma-meet ang binibining (weeeh) ito in person. Sya kase yung tipong pwede mong kausapin about anything under the sun. Academics, soundtrip (NP:D), lablayp (ayun!), kalokohan, basta kung anu-ano pa. Di sya nauubusan ng kwento. You'll want to talk and talk with her about anything once makausap mo sya, yung tipong spontaneous na talaga yung magiging dialogue (in other words madaldal :D Peace Mardz :e). Sa chat pa lang yan. At ngayon ngang nakatagpo ko na ang real life (:D) na mardz, she proved me right. Isa 'to sa mga unang pangalan na hinahanap ko sa room pag pasok ko, palagi kasing me baong kwento. She's fun to be with. Ideal Girl material din (andami mo ng utang saken huy, piso per praise yan ha). One more thing, she reminds me of my Bestest Best Friend/kambal. I'm glad I met her, kase ngayong nawala na sya (technically), me dumating para magfill ng nawala saken. Yan si Mardz :Dv
Kwek:D -=-=-=-=-=-
The End:P
Ahahaha! Huy! Bayad na ako sa utang ko sa'yo ha. Eto na yung kapalit ng New Moon na di natuloy. Hehe.
Pagdating naman sa kalokohan, kalokohan, kalokohan, si kwek ang panalo dyan. (Ay Shin daw pala) (ahmm, kwek close ba tayo? kung oo, gaano ka close? ahaha! laida magtalas) [Pasensya na umaatake na naman topak ko]. Mabasa mo agad kaya ito? Mardz sshhhh na lang muna :Dv
Isa pa 'to dun sa mga di nauubusan ng kwento. Nakakamiss na din ka-PM, kaasaran sa room, karibal sa UAAP (oo na, panalo na USTE mo, Animo pa din ako. See you sa V-League :B,). Ang madalas lang naman namen pag-usapan nito at di nawawalang topic everytime magkachat kame eh PagKain. Yah, food. Pasurvey pa kung tumataba na daw sya, hindi naman:) Palaging me kinakain/kakain/kakatapos kumain pag kachat ko (oh wag ng tatanggi). Hanga lang talaga ako sa metabolism ng katawan nito at hindi halatang me good appetite ang "binibining" (woot woot! ahaha) 'to. Pero di na daw sya malakas kumain ngayon. Weh. Di nga.
Shin= Kwela :D Hindi pwedeng hindi ako hahagalpak sa tawa everytime kachat ko sya. Mas matindi pa pala in person :] Nung makita ko pa lang napapatawa na ako:) (ngiti lang pala:D:D ahahahahahahaha). Definitely jolly and gay! Ay sister! :P! She's definitely FUN to be with. Di ka magsasawang makasama tong taong 'to. Kaya apply na! (kwek yan oh pinaghahanap na kita ng bagong career para di ka na manosebleed dyan;p).
{{oy kayong dalawa pagpasensyahan nyo na self-centered post ata 'to. ahaha. wala na ako maisip eh. ganto lang talaga ako}}
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Wala na masabi:D:P
Wala naman kaming masyadong ginawa. Para lang mga adik na naghang-out sa Mega. Lakad-lakad, Kaen, kwento, tas kaen dapat ulet (buti hindi natuloy Haha:D ay natuloy pala nakaalis na nga lang yung mahilig kumain:D peace peace!!). Nagtagal sa food court ng walang ginagawa. Kulang pa daw sa food. Dapat pala pang 10 persons naorder. Kulang pa sa isa dun.
Sulit na sulit ang lakad. Naenjoy ko ang scenery dun:) Andaming twinkle twinkle shining little stars. (blushes). Ching!
Ansaya magpictorial. Stolen na prepared shots:D Pang Miss Photogenic si Little Miss Sunshine:)
Agree ba Mardz? Ahahaha :)
Andaldal ko na dito ah. Pero maniwala kayo, tahimik talaga ako. Di lang halata. Well, read the warning above:
At heto na naman ang mga di ginagawang normal na tao/manunulat. Ang magkwento ng tungkol sa nangyari sa isang buong araw at mga pananaw sa kung anu-ano. Para akong babae kung mag-ingay ah. Pramis po, di ako chorva. :D Weeeh!!!
(trip ko lang to, walang basagan ng trip).
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A great day it has been. :) I owe them one. This is why I am thankful for having this "virtual" place with "real" people in it. I've got new friends. It may have started with simple "ASL's, Hi's and Welcome's", but definitely one cannot tell how relationships will grow. As for some, they "found" their other "halves", for others: real friends, for many: "part-time partners and the like", This is chat. And I for one will always be glad for having these two as my friends. Though we only met "electronically", still, I consider them as among the best ones I've had through this thing called "chat".
Sa uulitin, ShinKay:D KwekMardz:e
A day with Mardz and Kwek =P
Heto na naman ang isang "katha" na ginawang negotiable instrument.
"Pay to X or order the amount of P _ _ _ _.__ upon demand." (Nagcite pa ng example mali naman. Ahahaha. Really need Memory Aid.)
In other words, here is a blog entry by demand. Though the same is not necessary due to the author's free and continuing consent (tama ba definition ko? Tsk. Fail. Palpak na talaga ang utak ko.) Anyways, let's make this a decent post. (decent pero puro kalokohan ang laman)
I should mark this day in my calendar. Sabit lang naman ako sa lakad na 'to, pero enjoy naman talaga. Full of first's 'ika nga nila. Enumerate:
1. First time nakapunta sa MEGAMOL. At ganyan talaga ang spelling. Congratulations Promdi!Ganap ka nang sibilisado!
Anu pa ba?
2. First time nakaorder ng matagal ko ng kinatatakaman na KFC Hawaiian Twister (Akala ko kung anong lumpia o shawarma yun sa mga commercial. Sa Wrap! Kwek next time ka na lang ha? Haha)
3. At syempre, first time na nakipagmeet sa mga magaganda, mababait at ever reliable na mga chat friends/buddies (anlaki dapat ng tip ko sa inyo para dito).
Dami kong side comments na nasa (close open) parenthesis. (Di daw to necessary sabi ni Bob Ong sa Stainless Longganisa). (Eh ano ngayon?) Walang basagan ng trip!
Wrap up na :)
Wala na naman akong masasabi eh. Ahaha. Tama na yang pang intro.
This day will always be remembered; at least, by myself (at siguro pati yung dalawang bida sa post na to... Mardz and Kwek). Teka wala pa akong naibibida sa inyo ah. Okei. magseryoso tayo ng konte kahit hindi bagay. :B,
Sa halos isang taon kong pagtahak sa landas ng elektronikong pakikisalamuha (nosebleed, di ko matagalog ang virtual, social networking, otherwise known as chat sa Uzzap), ito pa lang ang unang beses na nakipag EB (not more of an EB, parang usual trip nga lang) ako sa mga chatmates ko. Kahit dun sa pinagkatandaan kong mga chatroom eh wala man lang akong nakadaupang-palad. Andun na yung mga virtual nanay, anak, ate, mare, apo, kapatid, manager, spiritual adviser, asawa este wala pala, I never had a chance to meet them in person. May ilan sa kanila na gusto ko talagang makausap pero dahil sa 'sangmilyong kadahilanan, hindi natupad ang minimithi kong kahit man lang isang minutong totoong talastasan. (.. seryoso na talaga yan, di ko na ma-gets ang mga term na ginagamit ko:D..). Distance, time, availability, insecurity ( oo, ayoko iharap ang pagkasama kong mukha sa iba). The list goes on and on. Pero sa mga bida sa post na 'to, I thank God at syempre sila for making this happen :).
Mardz :D -=-=-=-=-=-
Gusto ko talagang ma-meet ang binibining (weeeh) ito in person. Sya kase yung tipong pwede mong kausapin about anything under the sun. Academics, soundtrip (NP:D), lablayp (ayun!), kalokohan, basta kung anu-ano pa. Di sya nauubusan ng kwento. You'll want to talk and talk with her about anything once makausap mo sya, yung tipong spontaneous na talaga yung magiging dialogue (in other words madaldal :D Peace Mardz :e). Sa chat pa lang yan. At ngayon ngang nakatagpo ko na ang real life (:D) na mardz, she proved me right. Isa 'to sa mga unang pangalan na hinahanap ko sa room pag pasok ko, palagi kasing me baong kwento. She's fun to be with. Ideal Girl material din (andami mo ng utang saken huy, piso per praise yan ha). One more thing, she reminds me of my Bestest Best Friend/kambal. I'm glad I met her, kase ngayong nawala na sya (technically), me dumating para magfill ng nawala saken. Yan si Mardz :Dv
Kwek:D -=-=-=-=-=-
The End:P
Ahahaha! Huy! Bayad na ako sa utang ko sa'yo ha. Eto na yung kapalit ng New Moon na di natuloy. Hehe.
Pagdating naman sa kalokohan, kalokohan, kalokohan, si kwek ang panalo dyan. (Ay Shin daw pala) (ahmm, kwek close ba tayo? kung oo, gaano ka close? ahaha! laida magtalas) [Pasensya na umaatake na naman topak ko]. Mabasa mo agad kaya ito? Mardz sshhhh na lang muna :Dv
Isa pa 'to dun sa mga di nauubusan ng kwento. Nakakamiss na din ka-PM, kaasaran sa room, karibal sa UAAP (oo na, panalo na USTE mo, Animo pa din ako. See you sa V-League :B,). Ang madalas lang naman namen pag-usapan nito at di nawawalang topic everytime magkachat kame eh PagKain. Yah, food. Pasurvey pa kung tumataba na daw sya, hindi naman:) Palaging me kinakain/kakain/kakatapos kumain pag kachat ko (oh wag ng tatanggi). Hanga lang talaga ako sa metabolism ng katawan nito at hindi halatang me good appetite ang "binibining" (woot woot! ahaha) 'to. Pero di na daw sya malakas kumain ngayon. Weh. Di nga.
Shin= Kwela :D Hindi pwedeng hindi ako hahagalpak sa tawa everytime kachat ko sya. Mas matindi pa pala in person :] Nung makita ko pa lang napapatawa na ako:) (ngiti lang pala:D:D ahahahahahahaha). Definitely jolly and gay! Ay sister! :P! She's definitely FUN to be with. Di ka magsasawang makasama tong taong 'to. Kaya apply na! (kwek yan oh pinaghahanap na kita ng bagong career para di ka na manosebleed dyan;p).
{{oy kayong dalawa pagpasensyahan nyo na self-centered post ata 'to. ahaha. wala na ako maisip eh. ganto lang talaga ako}}
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Wala na masabi:D:P
Wala naman kaming masyadong ginawa. Para lang mga adik na naghang-out sa Mega. Lakad-lakad, Kaen, kwento, tas kaen dapat ulet (buti hindi natuloy Haha:D ay natuloy pala nakaalis na nga lang yung mahilig kumain:D peace peace!!). Nagtagal sa food court ng walang ginagawa. Kulang pa daw sa food. Dapat pala pang 10 persons naorder. Kulang pa sa isa dun.
Sulit na sulit ang lakad. Naenjoy ko ang scenery dun:) Andaming twinkle twinkle shining little stars. (blushes). Ching!
Ansaya magpictorial. Stolen na prepared shots:D Pang Miss Photogenic si Little Miss Sunshine:)
Agree ba Mardz? Ahahaha :)
Andaldal ko na dito ah. Pero maniwala kayo, tahimik talaga ako. Di lang halata. Well, read the warning above:
At heto na naman ang mga di ginagawang normal na tao/manunulat. Ang magkwento ng tungkol sa nangyari sa isang buong araw at mga pananaw sa kung anu-ano. Para akong babae kung mag-ingay ah. Pramis po, di ako chorva. :D Weeeh!!!
(trip ko lang to, walang basagan ng trip).
================
A great day it has been. :) I owe them one. This is why I am thankful for having this "virtual" place with "real" people in it. I've got new friends. It may have started with simple "ASL's, Hi's and Welcome's", but definitely one cannot tell how relationships will grow. As for some, they "found" their other "halves", for others: real friends, for many: "part-time partners and the like", This is chat. And I for one will always be glad for having these two as my friends. Though we only met "electronically", still, I consider them as among the best ones I've had through this thing called "chat".
Sa uulitin, ShinKay:D KwekMardz:e
Friday, February 26, 2010
Battle of the Brains
After 48 years, heto at mapapalaban na naman ang mokong na'to sa Battle of the Brains. Matagal ko na din kaseng di to nagagamit :D. Time to take off the rust.
Andrama:D ahaha Para namang kung saang international contest sasabak. Hindi po, me pagsusulit lang na kukuhanin. Matagal tagal na din kaseng hindi nakakita ng test paper tong mokong na 'to. Hindi ko alam kung marunong pa ako bumasa nun o kung saan ba ilalagay ang sagot. Sa blank ba o sa space ? :P Isa lang nasisiguro ko. Paktay ako.
Halos isang buwan ko din pinaghandaan ang pagbabalik eskwela. Matagal ko na kaseng gustong bumalik sa buhay estudyante : Petix, walang pinoproblemang trabaho, me baon, nakakatanaw ng maririkit na tanawin sa kapaligiran (^_^)v ; hangout pagkatapos ng klase; overnight na nagiging sleepover at inuman sessions; ano pa ba?. Ngayon ko lang narealize kung gaano kasarap maging isang estudyante. Ngayon na isa na lamang akong Alipin (ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid.. weeehh!!!).
Hindi na katulad ng dati ang babalikan kong buhay estudyante. Hindi na pwede and petix, ang daldalan at kulitan sa harap ng prof, ang asaran/bonding with the same prof (pwede siguro,palagi ng me mga "leech" sa sistema). Next level na 'to. Hindi na pwedeng magloko. Seryoso na ang laban. Hindi na ako makakaasa ng libreng pagpapaaral di tulad nung kolehiyo, at hindi rin sigurado kung matatapos ko ito dahil sa mga hindi pa nakikitang mga kadahilanan. Pinansyal, pangkalusugan, at syempre, pangkaisipan. Hindi na ako katulad dati na me sariwa pang pag-iisip, na madaling maka"pick-up" ng mga itinuturo o nababasa. Hindi na masipag magbasa (hindi naman talaga ah), magsulat at kung anu ano pang ginagawa madalas ng mga nerd at geek.
Ibang silid aralan na ang naghihintay sa aking mga hakbang.
Welcome to the Place where Gods rule.
Welcome to Hell.
(*evil smirk*) Di ba di ba?
Ngayong nagbabalak na akong pumasok sa mundo ng karimlan (naglipana na ang mga Blackbeard Pirates, ang Akatsuki at mga Class S na halimaw) kelangan pang dumaan sa initiation. Sana bumagsak ako :D Tapos ang kwento.
Hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pang makipagsabayan sa mga bata bata saken. Wala na akong maipagyayabang. Kung meron man, yun na yung katandaan (pinagyayabang ba dapat yun? haha). Nawawalan na ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko. Kaya ko pa ba? Simpleng review nga di ko na maintindihan. Kumain na ako ng madaming chocolate di pa din nagfunction ang utak ko. (Liar ka J.K. Rowling (Peace), akala ko ba epektib sa dementors ang chocolate? bakit madilim at malamig pa din?) Dapat siguro 2t oil na inumin ko para swabe uli ang takbo ng utak ko. Papachange oil na ako. Pag di pa rin epektib, change engine na. Hopeless case.
Last resort. Tide. Pambura ng kalawang :D
Heto na! Heto na! heto na! HaaaaahhH!!!
Pwede na ba 'tong pang-essay writing? Di na ako marunong gumawa eh. tsk tsk. Bahala na nga.
Andrama:D ahaha Para namang kung saang international contest sasabak. Hindi po, me pagsusulit lang na kukuhanin. Matagal tagal na din kaseng hindi nakakita ng test paper tong mokong na 'to. Hindi ko alam kung marunong pa ako bumasa nun o kung saan ba ilalagay ang sagot. Sa blank ba o sa space ? :P Isa lang nasisiguro ko. Paktay ako.
Halos isang buwan ko din pinaghandaan ang pagbabalik eskwela. Matagal ko na kaseng gustong bumalik sa buhay estudyante : Petix, walang pinoproblemang trabaho, me baon, nakakatanaw ng maririkit na tanawin sa kapaligiran (^_^)v ; hangout pagkatapos ng klase; overnight na nagiging sleepover at inuman sessions; ano pa ba?. Ngayon ko lang narealize kung gaano kasarap maging isang estudyante. Ngayon na isa na lamang akong Alipin (ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid.. weeehh!!!).
Hindi na katulad ng dati ang babalikan kong buhay estudyante. Hindi na pwede and petix, ang daldalan at kulitan sa harap ng prof, ang asaran/bonding with the same prof (pwede siguro,palagi ng me mga "leech" sa sistema). Next level na 'to. Hindi na pwedeng magloko. Seryoso na ang laban. Hindi na ako makakaasa ng libreng pagpapaaral di tulad nung kolehiyo, at hindi rin sigurado kung matatapos ko ito dahil sa mga hindi pa nakikitang mga kadahilanan. Pinansyal, pangkalusugan, at syempre, pangkaisipan. Hindi na ako katulad dati na me sariwa pang pag-iisip, na madaling maka"pick-up" ng mga itinuturo o nababasa. Hindi na masipag magbasa (hindi naman talaga ah), magsulat at kung anu ano pang ginagawa madalas ng mga nerd at geek.
Ibang silid aralan na ang naghihintay sa aking mga hakbang.
Welcome to the Place where Gods rule.
Welcome to Hell.
(*evil smirk*) Di ba di ba?
Ngayong nagbabalak na akong pumasok sa mundo ng karimlan (naglipana na ang mga Blackbeard Pirates, ang Akatsuki at mga Class S na halimaw) kelangan pang dumaan sa initiation. Sana bumagsak ako :D Tapos ang kwento.
Hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pang makipagsabayan sa mga bata bata saken. Wala na akong maipagyayabang. Kung meron man, yun na yung katandaan (pinagyayabang ba dapat yun? haha). Nawawalan na ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko. Kaya ko pa ba? Simpleng review nga di ko na maintindihan. Kumain na ako ng madaming chocolate di pa din nagfunction ang utak ko. (Liar ka J.K. Rowling (Peace), akala ko ba epektib sa dementors ang chocolate? bakit madilim at malamig pa din?) Dapat siguro 2t oil na inumin ko para swabe uli ang takbo ng utak ko. Papachange oil na ako. Pag di pa rin epektib, change engine na. Hopeless case.
Last resort. Tide. Pambura ng kalawang :D
Heto na! Heto na! heto na! HaaaaahhH!!!
Pwede na ba 'tong pang-essay writing? Di na ako marunong gumawa eh. tsk tsk. Bahala na nga.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Depreciation Expense: Accumulated Depreciation
Whooops! Not an accounting related post :P got yah!!! I hate accounting in the first place :D
I have used the same term for quite some time now: Depreciation. For me, it does not only apply to real/personal property. It also apply to persons. This is my case.
Realizing the need to refresh my mind, I went looking for my old college notes on my law subjects. At first, I seem to save a mischievous smile, confident that browsing over my treasured documents is just a piece of cake. As I turn over the pages, my eyes were then shrouded by a dark mist. Asking myself: "What is this I'm reading?" I can barely understand my previous notes which I used to know so much before. What I can easily pick up, explain and elaborate before seems to be foreign to me right now. Have I really answered those questions three years ago? I doubt.
Aftereffects of being in the limbo for two years - Yes, maybe.
Teka ang hirap na mag-english :D Kase naman. Pati basic composition kelangan i-review. Nakakabobo yata talaga magtrabaho. Rephrase: Nakakabobo magtrabaho tapos walang review. Yan yan kase naman. Di nakikinig sa payo ng master.
"Practice constantly!!!"
Hmmm pano nga ba makarecover sa accumulated depreciation? Purchase a new product? Di na ata uubra ang maintenance eh :D
I have used the same term for quite some time now: Depreciation. For me, it does not only apply to real/personal property. It also apply to persons. This is my case.
Realizing the need to refresh my mind, I went looking for my old college notes on my law subjects. At first, I seem to save a mischievous smile, confident that browsing over my treasured documents is just a piece of cake. As I turn over the pages, my eyes were then shrouded by a dark mist. Asking myself: "What is this I'm reading?" I can barely understand my previous notes which I used to know so much before. What I can easily pick up, explain and elaborate before seems to be foreign to me right now. Have I really answered those questions three years ago? I doubt.
Aftereffects of being in the limbo for two years - Yes, maybe.
Teka ang hirap na mag-english :D Kase naman. Pati basic composition kelangan i-review. Nakakabobo yata talaga magtrabaho. Rephrase: Nakakabobo magtrabaho tapos walang review. Yan yan kase naman. Di nakikinig sa payo ng master.
"Practice constantly!!!"
Hmmm pano nga ba makarecover sa accumulated depreciation? Purchase a new product? Di na ata uubra ang maintenance eh :D
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Another white balloon zooms to the sky...
Man can change his destiny, but sad to say, there really are things that are "written" - those that are drawn by the Almighty. We're blessed to adorn the sketches, playing with colors and twists. But at the end of the day, the finished product will still be that which is patterned from the blueprint.
Life is a masterpiece. God's masterpiece. It is all according to His plan.
Losing someone makes us realize it's true value. Then, we must live like everyday is the last day of our lives. Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow except for the Author.
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So, another balloon zooms to the sky.
A short, yet, a meaningful stay. Thanks for sharing a part of your self to us, most especially to your loved ones. You will always be remembered. The bonds you created will remain intact; for death ends a life, not a relationship. Though filled with sober, we will wear a bit of a smile, knowing you're moving to a better place. Continue to be a light shining in our lives. May you have a peaceful rest.
Thanks, Marose.
Life is a masterpiece. God's masterpiece. It is all according to His plan.
Losing someone makes us realize it's true value. Then, we must live like everyday is the last day of our lives. Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow except for the Author.
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So, another balloon zooms to the sky.
A short, yet, a meaningful stay. Thanks for sharing a part of your self to us, most especially to your loved ones. You will always be remembered. The bonds you created will remain intact; for death ends a life, not a relationship. Though filled with sober, we will wear a bit of a smile, knowing you're moving to a better place. Continue to be a light shining in our lives. May you have a peaceful rest.
Thanks, Marose.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
B-T-B-T. Tips to improve penmanship are highly appreciated!^_^
Just like a Grade 1 pupil on his first day in school. Argh I hate it.
I intentionally brought a pen with me in my "quarters" so I can try writing something during my spare time (I have a lot of those). I have my college /Call Center Training/non-sense articles notebook left along the other documents I usually bring during job applications with me as well. Browsing my notes, I came across a remark from my idol college professor: "YOU MUST IMPROVE YOUR PENMANSHIP". Most of my lawyer professors way back in college emphasized the importance of writing legibly in passing the Bar Exams. Since I have decided NoT to pursue this career back then, I disregarded the same note. Now it's haunting me.
How the hell can I improve my handwriting?
I think I need a Back To Basic Training course.
I was a third grader when I first received a negative feedback from my teacher on how bad my handwriting was. I wholeheartedly accepted that. I can't deny it. Kinahig ng Manok, they told me. Another comment ( a constructive one this time) came from my First Year High School English teacher . Not really a comment, more of a "quote". "Genius people doesn't write well." Yeah! I'm a genius 'eh? Just kidding! Hush! I even had a funny argument with my best friend and the consistent top of our class 'coz his handwriting isn't that good too. We're comparing whose handwriting is better. He insisted that his is better than mine so I'm more of a genius than him. Haha! Memories indeed, funny.
In my late elementary years, I have tried to change my writing style. My cursive handwriting really sucks. The same goes with my printed one. I have no choice. Thanks to our new class adviser, I had an example to pattern my new writing tech. From the kinahig ng manok, my writing was then characterized by a lot of extra longer strokes. In fairness, my writing became plainer [kaya lang mas umarte (shocks, hirap mag-english ah. haha)]. Thanks to my "improved" writing style, I somehow made use of it as a key in heading to my very first and only regional competition: RSPC 1999 at PGMNHS, Sta. Cruz, Laguna. Too bad my "writing" wasn't good enough to bring me further.
I consider writing as the best and only talent that I have. Compared to others, my writings are mediocre, amateur. I have a lot of flaws. My English dictionary is only limited to a number of words. Good thing I have my old and reliable dinosaur friend, the thesaurus, to back me up whenever needed. I have the usual grammatical errors. I can't even polish our thesis with a lot of language errors (thanks to our grammarian for cleaning up our mess).
Constant Practice: I've been trying to keep this in my mind every time I'm writing something. If you want to improve on something, keep practicing. For this reason, I keep on writing, even sometimes, it usually does not make any sense. Thanks to computers, I need not write them manually. Though I guess, the best of my writings came from my bad handwriting, pen and several crumpled papers. I consider myself good in writing but my handwriting is not good.
This brings me back to my initial conflict. .
I've got no chance to "go-where-i-want-to-be" if I can't work this one out.
Oh, and another flaw.
After graduation, I never held another academic book. I was contented in glancing my copy of the Civil Code. This past (almost) two years I kept myself busy with work (not really), and fun reading (manga, BO). Like a rusty old lamp, I need some polishing. I thought my school days are over. If I'm going back to school, I originally planned that it will be as a "teacher" and not as a student anymore. My eyes have lost their brightness. I don't think that I can be like my "old" self - someone who comes to class fully prepared, had advanced readings and notes, ready to engage in battle. My two-year break withered me.
I need another break.
I only have a few seconds to refresh (press F5 key). There.
I will keep on writing. I will. I will.
The pen is waiting for my hand. From hereon I will be taking a detour.
A a B b C c D d E e F f G g H h I i J j K k L l M m N n O o P p Q q R r S s T t U u V v W w X x Y y Z z.
Or should I say I will start with scratch.
[yes, shameful as it may be, I tried writing the letters of the alphabet like a kinder. The result: worse. I can't even consistently write these letters down. Hahahaha! (Tawa tayo!) Unsatisfactory with letters, I tried names. Then her name. Her name again. Then her name. Fail! ]
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Ubos na ang english ko. Magrecharge muna ako. =p.
Awa nyo na, pano ga magpaganda ng sulat?
I intentionally brought a pen with me in my "quarters" so I can try writing something during my spare time (I have a lot of those). I have my college /Call Center Training/non-sense articles notebook left along the other documents I usually bring during job applications with me as well. Browsing my notes, I came across a remark from my idol college professor: "YOU MUST IMPROVE YOUR PENMANSHIP". Most of my lawyer professors way back in college emphasized the importance of writing legibly in passing the Bar Exams. Since I have decided NoT to pursue this career back then, I disregarded the same note. Now it's haunting me.
How the hell can I improve my handwriting?
I think I need a Back To Basic Training course.
I was a third grader when I first received a negative feedback from my teacher on how bad my handwriting was. I wholeheartedly accepted that. I can't deny it. Kinahig ng Manok, they told me. Another comment ( a constructive one this time) came from my First Year High School English teacher . Not really a comment, more of a "quote". "Genius people doesn't write well." Yeah! I'm a genius 'eh? Just kidding! Hush! I even had a funny argument with my best friend and the consistent top of our class 'coz his handwriting isn't that good too. We're comparing whose handwriting is better. He insisted that his is better than mine so I'm more of a genius than him. Haha! Memories indeed, funny.
In my late elementary years, I have tried to change my writing style. My cursive handwriting really sucks. The same goes with my printed one. I have no choice. Thanks to our new class adviser, I had an example to pattern my new writing tech. From the kinahig ng manok, my writing was then characterized by a lot of extra longer strokes. In fairness, my writing became plainer [kaya lang mas umarte (shocks, hirap mag-english ah. haha)]. Thanks to my "improved" writing style, I somehow made use of it as a key in heading to my very first and only regional competition: RSPC 1999 at PGMNHS, Sta. Cruz, Laguna. Too bad my "writing" wasn't good enough to bring me further.
I consider writing as the best and only talent that I have. Compared to others, my writings are mediocre, amateur. I have a lot of flaws. My English dictionary is only limited to a number of words. Good thing I have my old and reliable dinosaur friend, the thesaurus, to back me up whenever needed. I have the usual grammatical errors. I can't even polish our thesis with a lot of language errors (thanks to our grammarian for cleaning up our mess).
Constant Practice: I've been trying to keep this in my mind every time I'm writing something. If you want to improve on something, keep practicing. For this reason, I keep on writing, even sometimes, it usually does not make any sense. Thanks to computers, I need not write them manually. Though I guess, the best of my writings came from my bad handwriting, pen and several crumpled papers. I consider myself good in writing but my handwriting is not good.
This brings me back to my initial conflict. .
I've got no chance to "go-where-i-want-to-be" if I can't work this one out.
Oh, and another flaw.
After graduation, I never held another academic book. I was contented in glancing my copy of the Civil Code. This past (almost) two years I kept myself busy with work (not really), and fun reading (manga, BO). Like a rusty old lamp, I need some polishing. I thought my school days are over. If I'm going back to school, I originally planned that it will be as a "teacher" and not as a student anymore. My eyes have lost their brightness. I don't think that I can be like my "old" self - someone who comes to class fully prepared, had advanced readings and notes, ready to engage in battle. My two-year break withered me.
I need another break.
I only have a few seconds to refresh (press F5 key). There.
I will keep on writing. I will. I will.
The pen is waiting for my hand. From hereon I will be taking a detour.
A a B b C c D d E e F f G g H h I i J j K k L l M m N n O o P p Q q R r S s T t U u V v W w X x Y y Z z.
Or should I say I will start with scratch.
[yes, shameful as it may be, I tried writing the letters of the alphabet like a kinder. The result: worse. I can't even consistently write these letters down. Hahahaha! (Tawa tayo!) Unsatisfactory with letters, I tried names. Then her name. Her name again. Then her name. Fail! ]
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Ubos na ang english ko. Magrecharge muna ako. =p.
Awa nyo na, pano ga magpaganda ng sulat?
Saturday, January 9, 2010
remembering something 3 years ago
January 9. 2010.
Haven't noticed it. Then, it's been 3 years since I got that item, actually, a pair. (My bestfriend once told me when I thought of sending her a present that it would be nice if I can give a pair of any item. One will be hers, and the other will be mine, so we will still have some sort of connection. Thanks to that idea, though I failed to give her the same (cause I already had something different for her, too bad her message came in a few hours late). The good thing, I find this useful for another person.
Yeah, it's the Feast of the Black Nazarene. I'm not a fanatic or a devotee. I never thought of going with the crowd (might happen someday, who knows) to take a look or wipe my hankie so I can be blessed by the image. It just happened that in that particular day 3 years ago, I incidentally had been in Quiapo after visiting my hospitalized father back on his first mild stroke attack. I was still in my school uniform back then, along with my sister and his husband, and some relatives who also went to visit my father. Making our way back home, knowing that it is the Feast in Quiapo, we decided to pass by and take part in attending the 7 o'clock mass outside the famous church.
It was my first time to be there. I expected that there will be a lot of people gathering around, after all it is that day of the year. Besides I think it will still be crowded there on any given day. I walked around, keeping my eye on my companions, taking my time to find anything interesting. My uncles and aunties are already buying something as souvenirs. Then my attention was caught by those familiar armlets. I used to buy my high school friends the same during fiestas. "That will be my souvenir", I thought. Yes, so I bought one. Quite a simple item as a souvenir. After all, I can't avail of anything more than that, I'm flat broke =p.
Having thought of someone, I got another armlet. The same color and size. So, that might work as a pair. Remembering what my bestfriend told me before, if I can give the other one to someone, then I will somehow have a connection with her for a "period".
Taking the pair with me back home, I decided to give the other to the person whom I consider the most important one for me during that time. The day after, during our usual time together at school, I gave it to her as just a casual item. Something like "lending" those leeches sheets of yellow paper when our instructor announces seatworks and quizzes. I wore my armlet, and she kept hers in her bag (I wonder if she ever wore that even once). I have that with me for quite sometime, with the promise to myself that I will make the other person with its "pair" happy all the time.
Some time passed, she went away. I kept wearing those until the "lock" was untied. I tried fixing it but it seems that I don't know how. I have not worn it since then. One by one, the laces kept on loosening. No matter how I tried setting them back in its old form, I always failed. Someday, I'm gonna find a way to fix it and make it look like new.
To date, I still have that item I've got three years ago. It was preserved in my so-called "memory box". I have no idea where the other half of the pair is. A part of me is hoping that it is still in one piece. If so, another wish will be to see it, and another hope that the pair will never be apart again. But also, the other part of me is starting to think of permanently sealing my own item in that box, and finding a new pair for myself.
Wherever it is and whatever may happen, that other half will always be a part of me.
Haven't noticed it. Then, it's been 3 years since I got that item, actually, a pair. (My bestfriend once told me when I thought of sending her a present that it would be nice if I can give a pair of any item. One will be hers, and the other will be mine, so we will still have some sort of connection. Thanks to that idea, though I failed to give her the same (cause I already had something different for her, too bad her message came in a few hours late). The good thing, I find this useful for another person.
Yeah, it's the Feast of the Black Nazarene. I'm not a fanatic or a devotee. I never thought of going with the crowd (might happen someday, who knows) to take a look or wipe my hankie so I can be blessed by the image. It just happened that in that particular day 3 years ago, I incidentally had been in Quiapo after visiting my hospitalized father back on his first mild stroke attack. I was still in my school uniform back then, along with my sister and his husband, and some relatives who also went to visit my father. Making our way back home, knowing that it is the Feast in Quiapo, we decided to pass by and take part in attending the 7 o'clock mass outside the famous church.
It was my first time to be there. I expected that there will be a lot of people gathering around, after all it is that day of the year. Besides I think it will still be crowded there on any given day. I walked around, keeping my eye on my companions, taking my time to find anything interesting. My uncles and aunties are already buying something as souvenirs. Then my attention was caught by those familiar armlets. I used to buy my high school friends the same during fiestas. "That will be my souvenir", I thought. Yes, so I bought one. Quite a simple item as a souvenir. After all, I can't avail of anything more than that, I'm flat broke =p.
Having thought of someone, I got another armlet. The same color and size. So, that might work as a pair. Remembering what my bestfriend told me before, if I can give the other one to someone, then I will somehow have a connection with her for a "period".
Taking the pair with me back home, I decided to give the other to the person whom I consider the most important one for me during that time. The day after, during our usual time together at school, I gave it to her as just a casual item. Something like "lending" those leeches sheets of yellow paper when our instructor announces seatworks and quizzes. I wore my armlet, and she kept hers in her bag (I wonder if she ever wore that even once). I have that with me for quite sometime, with the promise to myself that I will make the other person with its "pair" happy all the time.
Some time passed, she went away. I kept wearing those until the "lock" was untied. I tried fixing it but it seems that I don't know how. I have not worn it since then. One by one, the laces kept on loosening. No matter how I tried setting them back in its old form, I always failed. Someday, I'm gonna find a way to fix it and make it look like new.
To date, I still have that item I've got three years ago. It was preserved in my so-called "memory box". I have no idea where the other half of the pair is. A part of me is hoping that it is still in one piece. If so, another wish will be to see it, and another hope that the pair will never be apart again. But also, the other part of me is starting to think of permanently sealing my own item in that box, and finding a new pair for myself.
Wherever it is and whatever may happen, that other half will always be a part of me.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
nag-iingay lang... bagong taon eh :p
Aheerrrmmmm... Naubos na english ko ah. Tagalog ulet:D
Tag-lish na nga lang. Para madali. Krissy Style! Aha-ha-ha-ha-ha:D I know na!
Lately pala puro mga seryoso na entries ang napost ko dito. Yung iba naman non-sense. (Halos non-sense naman lahat, non-sense din naman yung nagsusulat. Makes sense?)
Okei. Start of the year. Sana puro maganda naman mangyari ngayong taon. Last year was a mess. I wish this year will be the opposite.
Hmm.. Siguro ako lang nag-iisip nito pero napansin ko lang. This past two years nagcelebrate (or "pinadaan") ko ang New Year's eve na masama ang pakiramdam ko. Ewan bakit ganon. Then the rest of the year, madaming nangyaring di maganda. Siguro kung paano ko sinalubong ang bagong taon eh parang foreshadowing ng mangyayari the whole year. Coincidence lang naman siguro. Nevermind anyways...
Pero kung ganito nga yung trend, then this year I'll make sure na magcecelebrate ako na healthy and happy:)
Cliche as it may be, palagi ko din ginagamit ang kasabihan/ idea na 'to. "There's a rainbow after the rain, sunshine after the darkest of the nights..." Well, I just had my darkest nightmare. Could this mean that this year I should expect the "best" of things? Can't conclude that yet. I hate setting expectations.
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Storytelling Mode
I've tried so hard to enjoy my holiday vacation (???!!???) . A trip to Enchanted Kingdom on the day before Christmas was my first stop. Masaya naman, first time ko dun eh:D Mas masaya lang siguro kung madaming kasama. Pinakamasaya kung kasama ko si "espi". Weeh hahaha! As if I have one (in my dreams, yes). At least, I had a day to relax and have fun.
Christmas
- Uhhhmm, dumaan pala ang Pasko. Di ko namalayan. Tsk. Sa ngayon, ang meaning na lang sa 'ken ng Pasko eh Gastos. (Sorry Bro, araw mo nga pala yun. Araw din ng mga chikiting). Solo ko ang daigdig. First Christmas na magkakahiwalay kame. Ang Tatay, andun na sa taas, ang Inay nasa kabilang dagat, ang panganay namen ewan, ang ate kasama ng pamilya nya sa pamilya ng kanyang asawa. Paskong pasko nakaharap ako sa laptop, busy sa pagbabasa ng manga (One Piece, the best!:D). Mga pamangkin at hipag ko lamang ang kasama ko (technically hindi, nasa kabilang bahay sila). Andaming dumaan sa bahay, namamasko. Tago mode naman ang mokong na 'to. (^_^)V Buti na lang nag-aya yung isa kong friend sa kanila, then dumalaw sa 4th year adviser at nakichika. Hush.
Ansaya saya ng pasko ko (pag-uuyam).
Two days back to work. Break ulet. New Year.
Rizal Day
-Unang regular holiday na hindi ko pinasukan sa trabaho. Gusto kong lubusin ang pahinga. Hindi na ulit kase ako makakaranas ng 5-day break dito. Kalimutan na ang double pay. May mas mahalaga akong gagawin. Sa tinagal tagal ko na dito sa kabihasnan, first time ko pa lang nakapunta sa MOA na mag-isa. Third overall (The first two being exposure trips way back in college One dated August 23 2006 :D, the other, sometime in August 2007) (saklap, tsk Ganyan ako ka-promdi, and I'm Proud of it). Wala namang notable na nangyari, nanakit lang paa ko sa kalilibot para mahanap ang tindahan ng mga Anime items. Napagod man, sulit na din ang araw. Nakahanap pa ako ng matagal ko ng hinahanap na One Piece movie collection. Saya :p Kinelangan din na maghanap ng kung anumang item para sa kasalukuyang pinakamahalagang tao sa mokong na 'to. Got one.
Last day of the year. Special Holiday. Walang pasok.
-Usually, tuwing gantong araw pumupunta ako sa bayan para mamili ng mga ihahanda sa Media Noche at mga paputok para makapag-ingay. Pass muna ngayong taon. Tulad nung Pasko, kanya-kanya na naman kaming magcecelebrate. Ang Inay, dumaan lang sa bahay nung isang araw, umalis din at sa kung saan na naman nag New Year (wawa naman si bunso). First time ko nag New Year na wala ako sa bahay. First time din na hindi ako nakahawak ng paputok, lusis at kung ano pang pampaingay pampailaw. First time na hindi ako nakatalon nung sumapit ang 12 o'clock. Ayos. Wala na talaga akong pag-asang tumangkad:D
Knowing that I won't enjoy this celebration much if I stayed at home, I decided to "find my happiness". Even without my family, I still had the best New Year's eve I'd ever had.
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That's about starting things right. Start the year right and end it right.
This year I had resolved to change things. A new year means a new self. Time to move forward. Time to keep walking. Here I go. Almost there. Taking a higher leap, I'm going to reach you.
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Sa mga nakabasa nito (at sa iba ko pang nonsense na post) at nag-isip ng kung anu-ano tungkol saken... Ayos lang. Ang saken lang,... "Walang basagan ng Trip!" :D:D:D
--- dapat ata nasa frontpage ng blog to. Disclaimer:)
Tag-lish na nga lang. Para madali. Krissy Style! Aha-ha-ha-ha-ha:D I know na!
Lately pala puro mga seryoso na entries ang napost ko dito. Yung iba naman non-sense. (Halos non-sense naman lahat, non-sense din naman yung nagsusulat. Makes sense?)
Okei. Start of the year. Sana puro maganda naman mangyari ngayong taon. Last year was a mess. I wish this year will be the opposite.
Hmm.. Siguro ako lang nag-iisip nito pero napansin ko lang. This past two years nagcelebrate (or "pinadaan") ko ang New Year's eve na masama ang pakiramdam ko. Ewan bakit ganon. Then the rest of the year, madaming nangyaring di maganda. Siguro kung paano ko sinalubong ang bagong taon eh parang foreshadowing ng mangyayari the whole year. Coincidence lang naman siguro. Nevermind anyways...
Pero kung ganito nga yung trend, then this year I'll make sure na magcecelebrate ako na healthy and happy:)
Cliche as it may be, palagi ko din ginagamit ang kasabihan/ idea na 'to. "There's a rainbow after the rain, sunshine after the darkest of the nights..." Well, I just had my darkest nightmare. Could this mean that this year I should expect the "best" of things? Can't conclude that yet. I hate setting expectations.
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Storytelling Mode
I've tried so hard to enjoy my holiday vacation (???!!???) . A trip to Enchanted Kingdom on the day before Christmas was my first stop. Masaya naman, first time ko dun eh:D Mas masaya lang siguro kung madaming kasama. Pinakamasaya kung kasama ko si "espi". Weeh hahaha! As if I have one (in my dreams, yes). At least, I had a day to relax and have fun.
Christmas
- Uhhhmm, dumaan pala ang Pasko. Di ko namalayan. Tsk. Sa ngayon, ang meaning na lang sa 'ken ng Pasko eh Gastos. (Sorry Bro, araw mo nga pala yun. Araw din ng mga chikiting). Solo ko ang daigdig. First Christmas na magkakahiwalay kame. Ang Tatay, andun na sa taas, ang Inay nasa kabilang dagat, ang panganay namen ewan, ang ate kasama ng pamilya nya sa pamilya ng kanyang asawa. Paskong pasko nakaharap ako sa laptop, busy sa pagbabasa ng manga (One Piece, the best!:D). Mga pamangkin at hipag ko lamang ang kasama ko (technically hindi, nasa kabilang bahay sila). Andaming dumaan sa bahay, namamasko. Tago mode naman ang mokong na 'to. (^_^)V Buti na lang nag-aya yung isa kong friend sa kanila, then dumalaw sa 4th year adviser at nakichika. Hush.
Ansaya saya ng pasko ko (pag-uuyam).
Two days back to work. Break ulet. New Year.
Rizal Day
-Unang regular holiday na hindi ko pinasukan sa trabaho. Gusto kong lubusin ang pahinga. Hindi na ulit kase ako makakaranas ng 5-day break dito. Kalimutan na ang double pay. May mas mahalaga akong gagawin. Sa tinagal tagal ko na dito sa kabihasnan, first time ko pa lang nakapunta sa MOA na mag-isa. Third overall (The first two being exposure trips way back in college One dated August 23 2006 :D, the other, sometime in August 2007) (saklap, tsk Ganyan ako ka-promdi, and I'm Proud of it). Wala namang notable na nangyari, nanakit lang paa ko sa kalilibot para mahanap ang tindahan ng mga Anime items. Napagod man, sulit na din ang araw. Nakahanap pa ako ng matagal ko ng hinahanap na One Piece movie collection. Saya :p Kinelangan din na maghanap ng kung anumang item para sa kasalukuyang pinakamahalagang tao sa mokong na 'to. Got one.
Last day of the year. Special Holiday. Walang pasok.
-Usually, tuwing gantong araw pumupunta ako sa bayan para mamili ng mga ihahanda sa Media Noche at mga paputok para makapag-ingay. Pass muna ngayong taon. Tulad nung Pasko, kanya-kanya na naman kaming magcecelebrate. Ang Inay, dumaan lang sa bahay nung isang araw, umalis din at sa kung saan na naman nag New Year (wawa naman si bunso). First time ko nag New Year na wala ako sa bahay. First time din na hindi ako nakahawak ng paputok, lusis at kung ano pang pampaingay pampailaw. First time na hindi ako nakatalon nung sumapit ang 12 o'clock. Ayos. Wala na talaga akong pag-asang tumangkad:D
Knowing that I won't enjoy this celebration much if I stayed at home, I decided to "find my happiness". Even without my family, I still had the best New Year's eve I'd ever had.
---
That's about starting things right. Start the year right and end it right.
This year I had resolved to change things. A new year means a new self. Time to move forward. Time to keep walking. Here I go. Almost there. Taking a higher leap, I'm going to reach you.
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Sa mga nakabasa nito (at sa iba ko pang nonsense na post) at nag-isip ng kung anu-ano tungkol saken... Ayos lang. Ang saken lang,... "Walang basagan ng Trip!" :D:D:D
--- dapat ata nasa frontpage ng blog to. Disclaimer:)
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