Monday, March 29, 2010

Way To Go!

OG OT YAW! WAY TO GO rather :D

These words weren't simply an inscription in the (Graduation) Cake. It means a lot, for her at least.

---{[Here I go again, speaking/writing out on behalf of others, well, this has been a sickness of mine since birth. Pardon me if I've been too noisy around here. Anyways, you won't hear anything from me in person about topics like these. As much as I like, I want to make this from the First Person point of view. Knowing "a bit" of you, I don't think you'll entertain the idea of creating posts like these nowadays. Unfortunately, it seems that this will end up as another self-centered post. And for that, I am requesting for your utmost tolerance and kind understanding.]}

You finally had that momentous march (I think you've been so longing for). It has been a long trip, but we're not done yet. Just a few steps away, you'll achieve the other milestone you so desire. I'm pretty sure you'll bet everything you've got for that goal. In less than a year, you could have earned your second and more fulfilling college degree, the one that will to lead you to brighter opportunities.

Nothing else could be more fulfilling for parents to see their children walking down the aisle, heading towards the stage to receive their hard-earned diploma. That is a moment when parents can't be any prouder for their daughters. Talking about reaping the fruits of all the hard work. That definitely was a walk to remember.

I have always believed in you. You're much better than me, I know you are (not much of a comparison, it's just that I want to show you how GOOD you are.. [[am I too defensive?:D Argh! Will I ever make a serious post here?]]) You're even better at me at this: writing/posting (which I consider as my only talent(???)) You've got a lot of good points. Hmmm, maybe there were just times that you lack motivation. Just look around (and on your phone), and you'll find that you're surrounded. You've got an overwhelming source of motivation and love. No need for other considerations (Appearance Fees and the like... Am I over the limit?:Pv )

Keep moving forward. They're just beside you along the way.

Nothing else to say......


"Congratulations!!! I'm so proud of you! You did it!"
I never mentioned it once right? :D

Feel free to disturb me anytime. My lines are always open. I am your family's adopted relative after all. :D:D:D:D

Still a long way to go. Let's meet at the end of the road.

Weekender

Speaking about the best weekends... I just had one.

My first time in Bicolandia!
Seeing with my own eyes the once perfect cone...
Bearing witness to a special child's rather a special friend's remarkable moment...

Definitely one of the best!

Calendar Marked!

Friday, March 19, 2010

Ang linaw linaw na bagay pinapalabo...

Hay! Kainaman naman na! Bakit ganoon? Ang ganda ganda ng paliwanag hindi pa agad nakuha ang ibig sabihin! Naturingan pa naman silang mga "eksperto" sa ganoong usapin.

Oo, siguro nga iba't -iba ang pang-unawa nga mga tao sa isang bagay. Tinitingnan natin ang isang bagay at binigyan ng magkakaibang kahulugan. Ang mga interpretasyon natin ang magtatalo, ang magpapanglaban. Matapos man ang usaping ito, may manalo man o matalo, mananatili pa din ang naggigiriang mga opinyon hinggil dito.

Nirerespeto naman namin ang inyong desisyon. Syempre, kayo ang otoridad, nasa inyo ang kapangyarihan at ang huling sabi. Pero sana man lang, bigyan niyo ng pagkakataon ang karamihan na ipaabot ang kanilang pananaw. Madami kaming nangangailangan ng "katotohanan, tama at makatarungang desisyon. Wag nyo ng palabuin ang isang bagay na maliwanag pa sa sikat ng araw.

1987 Philippine Constitution : Article VII, Section 15.

Two months immediately before the next presidential elections and up to the end of his term, a President or Acting President shall not make appointments, except temporary appointments to executive positions when continued vacancies therein will prejudice public service or endanger public safety."


Malinaw na nakasaad sa Konstitusyon na HINDI MAAARING MAGTALAGA sa kahit anong posisyon ang Pangulo dalawang buwan bago ang susunod na halalan. Walang nabanggit na hindi nasasakop ng pagbabawal na ito ang pagtatalaga sa Hudikatura. "Expressio unius est exclusio alterius" - The expression of one thing is the exclusion of another. Mismong ang mga taong nasa likod na ng pagsusulat ng kasalukuyang konstitusyon ang nagpatunay na walang malabong kahulugan ang nasabing probisyon. Ang Korte Suprema na din mismo ang nagpatunay nito sa isang nakaraang desisyon noong kapanahunan ni Pangulong Ramos. Bakit nila babaligtarin ang nakaraan nilang desisyon? May nakita ba silang mali dito?

Sa pinakahuling desisyon ng Korte Suprema, pinagtibay nila na maaaring magtalaga ang Pangulo ng kapalit ng magreretirong Punong Hukom, bagaman nasasakop na ito ng constitutional ban. Isang midnight appointment na nag-aambang maghudyat ng pagkagapi ng katarungan at pagtatakip ng mga bahid ng mga korupsyon sa gobyerno. Wag nating hayaang habambuhay na lang tayong magbubulag bulagan sa katotohanan. Wag nating hayaang tanggalan tayo ng karapatang magmatyag at idulog ang "katarungan" sa mga taong nararapat lamang na makatanggap nito. May magagawa tayo. Di na tayo magpapasiil.

Hayaan nating mangibabaw ang katotohanan at ang nararapat.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

LSS : Burnout!!!

Burnout by Sugrafree


O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin
'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin
Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago
'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali

CHORUS
O, kay tagal din kitang minahal

Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Teka muna, teka lang, kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay

[Repeat CHORUS]

Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita
'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama

O, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin

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Sapul!!!

No more comments...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

A year it has been..

Just for the sake of posting to remember that day, commemorate rather.

March 23, 2009.

Well, it's been a year since my family was lesser by one, the foundation. Yes, I know this is not the right place for me to be saying something like this. But this is the way I am, this is how I can best express how I feel and what I think. Anyways, just wanna see how things are a year after the parting time.

(Am I really emotional? Yeah, I think so.)

This time last year (or lets adjust it a few days, hmmm, around March 15), I went back home for the second time in two months after I started working here in Paranaque. Those were the days that I'm much delighted to see my whole family together. Homesickness, I guess. I was still at the adjusting stage of "living independently" from my parents. I have seen the changes myself back then. I'm no longer the youngest child who used to call Inay and Tatay to ask for everything I want and need. I felt the same change with them as well. Our conversations had turned into a different dimension, as if they are talking with a "grown up". After all, it was my choice to fend for myself, work away from them despite their strong opposition, especially my Father. We had heated discussions back then regarding that topic. They just wanted me to work somewhere in our place. I already gave them what they want when I once "tried" to work in a "dont-know-what-kind-of-office-as-that" and a call center by the city. But since I really dont want to be in that field, I immediately left to find another one, something I have an interest with. I've been planning to work in the Metro years back in college. I wanted to be independent, to decide for myself and experience the real world by myself. I wanted to grow, be mature and professional - These things I cannot see into reality if I will remain in the province, working underemployed for companies I dont care a jot for. In the end, they gave me what I want. With a smiling face, a hopeful mind, and a broken heart, I left home to find my luck in the Metro.

Barely three weeks after I first left, I went home for a visit. I am overjoyed to see them - my nephews and nieces, my sister, Inay, and Tatay. It feels like a year since my departure. And yet, it was soothing to have them around me, treating me as a VIP. I initially intended to go home once month, and that's just fine with them. My second visit, a day before our barangay fiesta, March 15, was quite much memorable. Though we will not be having a lot of visitors during that time, we still had those mini preparations for the coming festivity. I am more than cheered up seeing how Tatay and Inay had that funny conversation while preparing the embutido. My father, having had a mild stroke attack a year ago, cannot properly tie the ends as his left hand have gone quite dysfunctional. My mother, a beginner in cooking such dish, cannot do it properly as well. They had their laughs while working on that one as me and my sister kept taunting them on how they will finish the task. That was I guess, one of the usual moments of couples who have grown to become friends years after their marriage. I'm sure they had a millions of the same gags before, but seeing them playing that time is somehow nostalgic, not knowing that it will be one of their last...

Come Fiesta and we had the small celebration. We have quite a few dishes to serve but unlike the previous years, our table is much smaller. I had a dose of the food early on coz by late afternoon I'll be back to Paranaque for work. My father had a "tour" of our neighbors, taking one plate after another. He really enjoyed that one, I guess. I stayed home the rest of the day, waiting for visitors and taking a meal hour by hour. By afternoon, I had departed, taking with me a piece of the embutido my parents worked so hard for. :D That was the last meal Tatay made for me...

Three days after, I was awaken by a text message from my sister telling that my father was brought to the hospital. I don't know the circumstances but she said that they can speak with him and it was unlike the mild stroke attack he had last year. I was somehow relieved by then, but still worried since I'm desperate for news. The day after, I went to the hospital to see my father in ICU, can pretty talk well and full(or should I say half) of himself. As I went before him, he started talking as if he was already giving me his last pieces of advice. He told me to be thrifty, spend my money wisely and save for the future. He even opened the topic on the possibility of me getting back to school. I just said not to worry about me and that we'll passed this one like before. I never really cared for money. I just wanted to bail him out of the hospital and walk and ride our tricycle again and had a run with me...

[the rest.. I think I had it posted in a different entry.. here - http://baliwantunaan.blogspot.com/2009/09/special-day-tomorrow-tribute-for-two.html ]

So, it's almost a year after that. Come Tuesday then it's exactly a year. How have we fared a year after he went on the other side of the rainbow? A year after his white balloon had flown away from us, heading to that shining ray of light?

To be honest we had gotten over that feeling. We are done with the "depressed" and "adjusting stage". (If writing this one or keeping this in my mind for quite some time would claim otherwise, then it's wrong, but I'm certain that I'm more that okay right now, fully accepted that he left us and is now on better hands). Maybe, it is a continuous adjustment stage. We have moved on. That page has been marked in our lives, we have turned over a new one, but keeping that single page in the footnotes. Though the same may be true, I hate to admit that we are far worse right now after his departure: Worse in the sense that we barely see each other day by day. We are parted by distance, and also by walls. Since that day, I have been going home on a weekly basis. Then I had a temporarily stayed in Marikina for almost two months, expecting that Inay and I will be staying there for a long time (as one of Tatay's wishes Inay to stay with me as I work here). The same never materialized, so I went back to my "home". Keeping ourselves busy with different tasks (Inay working out on the papers, me and my siblings with our jobs), we have somehow gotten over the feeling of lost. Once or twice a month we kept visiting his tomb. Inay kept telling her apo's to talk with their Lolo. We are one with the thought that it's just like Tatay was just somewhere else, abroad in particular. He's just watching over us, keeping his "reminders" whenever we had done mistakes or something he against his will. Once in a while I have dreams about him, just like he is just around, alive and kicking. The same goes with Inay and my sister. We kept having those dreams of him. The same happens whenever we face some difficulty or having conflict with one another. For a moment or two we were closely knitted after his passing. Though there are still those instances that we fail to keep in touch with one another, we are somehow making up for lost time whenever we are having those little hang-ups and window shopping.

But right now, those ties were somehow loosening. We are now separated by seas, by walls, and by the unknown. I barely had news about one, I wanna give him a hard punch when I see him. The other, she seems to have enjoyed herself with the company of other people. I know I have my shortcomings for not being so passionate or not showing my care for them. But hey, is that enough reason to keep us waiting for weeks or months for her to show up to me? I failed to follow one of Tatay's last advices. I barely saved a cent in my pocket. Someone beat me up! (JK)

How I wish that he could show up in our dreams at the same time with the same message. If not in our dreams, show up when we're wide awake. We are not asking much from you, all your life we've been seeking your guidance. Just keep us as one, as a FAMILY that we once are. You may not be physically present, but in our hearts, we know that you are with us. Keep reminding us to love each other, to never fail to keep in touch, and to be a Family. I know it's up to US to do all these, but please, heed my request:

Keep our deal sealed.

And also, keep watching us.

Uhmmm, if it's not too much...

Can you cook me another embutido? :D We missed it. :)

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

ChatChatChat

Now my views about chat huh? Yeah, better place it here.

Chat, for me, is an outlet for revealing someone's personality, though it be the real or hidden in the eyes of "real" people around a person. You can make you own rules, clans, families, and so on and so forth. You can talk about anything, Yes, ANYTHING, with or without limitations. That's why I think some really "exploit" or use this to their advantage. Exploit, in the sense that they gain benefits from chatting. An extension of one's self. This is chat.

Most chatters join clans to feel "security", be identified, and also for their sense of belongingness to be fulfilled: to establish relationships where one can assume a role (husband and wife, father, mother, brother sister, happily brush your teeth ^_^). Yes, assume. This could be good in shaping/revealing his/her personality. They establish their own rules, call themselves "this" and "that" to portray themselves, or someone else who they really wanna be.They are the authority here. While for some (or perhaps the majority), they enjoy being in these families. I would also want to be a member of these groups, but just as a bystander. I want to mingle with others, join conversations, play games and the like. Of course, I want "unity" here, but there are just some things which I think are to silly for me to do (using whatever names and wearing "clan uniforms", well, I am the captain of my self. ).

Some chatters prefer to abide by their own rules (me included). There was a point when I wanted to chat just so I can say "I belong". Later I realized that I have other needs to fulfill. I need friends. And so it was all that I wanted here. Chat has been my outlet for all the time that I've been alone. Here there's no one who can boss me around. That's why I hate it when somebody assumes he's higher than other, that he has more privileges over others. I hate joining clans for they impose their own rules. Yes, sure, go on with what you want. The hell I care. I dont want to wear those so-called "uniforms". It may be called your "rules". Yes, you are the authority. Yes, I dont follow those simple rules. This is because I don't want to. I am here to chat and enjoy, to meet new friends. Call me stupid or idiot or (hmm, what is the english term for Pasaway?^_^ deviant, violator, offender, what?), but I will live my life as I want to. This is my escape to the real rules of the world. By damn I will not let follow any other rule except what I think is right and proper to well-established "rules of law and morality" (though sometimes I violate them myself). It doesn't necessarily mean that I don't want to be ordered around. Well, somehow like that. But what I really wanted here is FREEDOM. Freedom with responsibility and discernment, that is. (that's why I wanna become the Pirate King, to be the man with the most Freedom in this world :D See you in Final Island, Monkey D. Luffy . One Piece Fan here folks:D)



There are those who have started working out romantic relationships through chat. This works the same as textmates who then "falls in love with each other" after some time. Hmmm. My stand here: I don't believe in relationships which are "pure chat" and "chat alone". Yes, I agree that you may start relationships here, you may meet interesting people, know and eventually fall for them. But keeping these relationships within the bounds of the electronic world, this I don't think is healthy. Not for being a bitter who has not experienced the same both in real and "virtually", this is just what I believe in. It will be too difficult for one to hold on to such relationships. It may be possible for some. My point is, having "physical connection/contact/communication" still makes the difference. I don't see anything wrong with starting relationships through chat and the like. It 's just like long distance relationships. What matters here is how you sustain the same. And as for me, it is always good, and almost imperative, to build these relationships "for real". Anyways, I have welcomed myself for opportunities to meet someone interesting here as well :P.

There are some who are called "Pampam": Flooders, Trolls, and the like. They usually disturb the "peaceful and innocent chatters" by blocking their means of a clear conversation. I've heard DJ Tado (brewrats! Tama!) used to do the same as a form of relaxation. Well, I can't blame them. There are those who want to do things which will bring them "pleasure" despite the fact that they are actually causing somebody else's discomfort. No comment here. I don't wanna offend them, we all have different mindsets here. Let them be. Let them be the terrorists who wants to cause upheaval just to attain their personal goals. Let them be the tyrants who continue to oppress it's people for their own benefit. (*evil grin)( God please forgive them for they do not know what they are doing^_^.)

Again, there's Freedom here.

This is, my opinion. I don't know how you define Chat and it's implication in your life. After all, "We may look at the same thing and see it differently.", right?

ShinKayCoy :D

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A day with Mardz and Kwek =P

Heto na naman ang isang "katha" na ginawang negotiable instrument.

"Pay to X or order the amount of P _ _ _ _.__ upon demand." (Nagcite pa ng example mali naman. Ahahaha. Really need Memory Aid.)

In other words, here is a blog entry by demand. Though the same is not necessary due to the author's free and continuing consent (tama ba definition ko? Tsk. Fail. Palpak na talaga ang utak ko.) Anyways, let's make this a decent post. (decent pero puro kalokohan ang laman)


I should mark this day in my calendar. Sabit lang naman ako sa lakad na 'to, pero enjoy naman talaga. Full of first's 'ika nga nila. Enumerate:

1. First time nakapunta sa MEGAMOL. At ganyan talaga ang spelling. Congratulations Promdi!Ganap ka nang sibilisado!

Anu pa ba?

2. First time nakaorder ng matagal ko ng kinatatakaman na KFC Hawaiian Twister (Akala ko kung anong lumpia o shawarma yun sa mga commercial. Sa Wrap! Kwek next time ka na lang ha? Haha)

3. At syempre, first time na nakipagmeet sa mga magaganda, mababait at ever reliable na mga chat friends/buddies (anlaki dapat ng tip ko sa inyo para dito).

Dami kong side comments na nasa (close open) parenthesis. (Di daw to necessary sabi ni Bob Ong sa Stainless Longganisa). (Eh ano ngayon?) Walang basagan ng trip!

Wrap up na :)

Wala na naman akong masasabi eh. Ahaha. Tama na yang pang intro.

This day will always be remembered; at least, by myself (at siguro pati yung dalawang bida sa post na to... Mardz and Kwek). Teka wala pa akong naibibida sa inyo ah. Okei. magseryoso tayo ng konte kahit hindi bagay. :B,

Sa halos isang taon kong pagtahak sa landas ng elektronikong pakikisalamuha (nosebleed, di ko matagalog ang virtual, social networking, otherwise known as chat sa Uzzap), ito pa lang ang unang beses na nakipag EB (not more of an EB, parang usual trip nga lang) ako sa mga chatmates ko. Kahit dun sa pinagkatandaan kong mga chatroom eh wala man lang akong nakadaupang-palad. Andun na yung mga virtual nanay, anak, ate, mare, apo, kapatid, manager, spiritual adviser, asawa este wala pala, I never had a chance to meet them in person. May ilan sa kanila na gusto ko talagang makausap pero dahil sa 'sangmilyong kadahilanan, hindi natupad ang minimithi kong kahit man lang isang minutong totoong talastasan. (.. seryoso na talaga yan, di ko na ma-gets ang mga term na ginagamit ko:D..). Distance, time, availability, insecurity ( oo, ayoko iharap ang pagkasama kong mukha sa iba). The list goes on and on. Pero sa mga bida sa post na 'to, I thank God at syempre sila for making this happen :).

Mardz :D -=-=-=-=-=-

Gusto ko talagang ma-meet ang binibining (weeeh) ito in person. Sya kase yung tipong pwede mong kausapin about anything under the sun. Academics, soundtrip (NP:D), lablayp (ayun!), kalokohan, basta kung anu-ano pa. Di sya nauubusan ng kwento. You'll want to talk and talk with her about anything once makausap mo sya, yung tipong spontaneous na talaga yung magiging dialogue (in other words madaldal :D Peace Mardz :e). Sa chat pa lang yan. At ngayon ngang nakatagpo ko na ang real life (:D) na mardz, she proved me right. Isa 'to sa mga unang pangalan na hinahanap ko sa room pag pasok ko, palagi kasing me baong kwento. She's fun to be with. Ideal Girl material din (andami mo ng utang saken huy, piso per praise yan ha). One more thing, she reminds me of my Bestest Best Friend/kambal. I'm glad I met her, kase ngayong nawala na sya (technically), me dumating para magfill ng nawala saken. Yan si Mardz :Dv

Kwek:D -=-=-=-=-=-

The End:P

Ahahaha! Huy! Bayad na ako sa utang ko sa'yo ha. Eto na yung kapalit ng New Moon na di natuloy. Hehe.

Pagdating naman sa kalokohan, kalokohan, kalokohan, si kwek ang panalo dyan. (Ay Shin daw pala) (ahmm, kwek close ba tayo? kung oo, gaano ka close? ahaha! laida magtalas) [Pasensya na umaatake na naman topak ko]. Mabasa mo agad kaya ito? Mardz sshhhh na lang muna :Dv
Isa pa 'to dun sa mga di nauubusan ng kwento. Nakakamiss na din ka-PM, kaasaran sa room, karibal sa UAAP (oo na, panalo na USTE mo, Animo pa din ako. See you sa V-League :B,). Ang madalas lang naman namen pag-usapan nito at di nawawalang topic everytime magkachat kame eh PagKain. Yah, food. Pasurvey pa kung tumataba na daw sya, hindi naman:) Palaging me kinakain/kakain/kakatapos kumain pag kachat ko (oh wag ng tatanggi). Hanga lang talaga ako sa metabolism ng katawan nito at hindi halatang me good appetite ang "binibining" (woot woot! ahaha) 'to. Pero di na daw sya malakas kumain ngayon. Weh. Di nga.

Shin= Kwela :D Hindi pwedeng hindi ako hahagalpak sa tawa everytime kachat ko sya. Mas matindi pa pala in person :] Nung makita ko pa lang napapatawa na ako:) (ngiti lang pala:D:D ahahahahahahaha). Definitely jolly and gay! Ay sister! :P! She's definitely FUN to be with. Di ka magsasawang makasama tong taong 'to. Kaya apply na! (kwek yan oh pinaghahanap na kita ng bagong career para di ka na manosebleed dyan;p).

{{oy kayong dalawa pagpasensyahan nyo na self-centered post ata 'to. ahaha. wala na ako maisip eh. ganto lang talaga ako}}

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Wala na masabi:D:P

Wala naman kaming masyadong ginawa. Para lang mga adik na naghang-out sa Mega. Lakad-lakad, Kaen, kwento, tas kaen dapat ulet (buti hindi natuloy Haha:D ay natuloy pala nakaalis na nga lang yung mahilig kumain:D peace peace!!). Nagtagal sa food court ng walang ginagawa. Kulang pa daw sa food. Dapat pala pang 10 persons naorder. Kulang pa sa isa dun.

Sulit na sulit ang lakad. Naenjoy ko ang scenery dun:) Andaming twinkle twinkle shining little stars. (blushes). Ching!

Ansaya magpictorial. Stolen na prepared shots:D Pang Miss Photogenic si Little Miss Sunshine:)
Agree ba Mardz? Ahahaha :)

Andaldal ko na dito ah. Pero maniwala kayo, tahimik talaga ako. Di lang halata. Well, read the warning above:

At heto na naman ang mga di ginagawang normal na tao/manunulat. Ang magkwento ng tungkol sa nangyari sa isang buong araw at mga pananaw sa kung anu-ano. Para akong babae kung mag-ingay ah. Pramis po, di ako chorva. :D Weeeh!!!

(trip ko lang to, walang basagan ng trip).
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A great day it has been. :) I owe them one. This is why I am thankful for having this "virtual" place with "real" people in it. I've got new friends. It may have started with simple "ASL's, Hi's and Welcome's", but definitely one cannot tell how relationships will grow. As for some, they "found" their other "halves", for others: real friends, for many: "part-time partners and the like", This is chat. And I for one will always be glad for having these two as my friends. Though we only met "electronically", still, I consider them as among the best ones I've had through this thing called "chat".

Sa uulitin, ShinKay:D KwekMardz:e