Man can change his destiny, but sad to say, there really are things that are "written" - those that are drawn by the Almighty. We're blessed to adorn the sketches, playing with colors and twists. But at the end of the day, the finished product will still be that which is patterned from the blueprint.
Life is a masterpiece. God's masterpiece. It is all according to His plan.
Losing someone makes us realize it's true value. Then, we must live like everyday is the last day of our lives. Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow except for the Author.
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So, another balloon zooms to the sky.
A short, yet, a meaningful stay. Thanks for sharing a part of your self to us, most especially to your loved ones. You will always be remembered. The bonds you created will remain intact; for death ends a life, not a relationship. Though filled with sober, we will wear a bit of a smile, knowing you're moving to a better place. Continue to be a light shining in our lives. May you have a peaceful rest.
Thanks, Marose.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
B-T-B-T. Tips to improve penmanship are highly appreciated!^_^
Just like a Grade 1 pupil on his first day in school. Argh I hate it.
I intentionally brought a pen with me in my "quarters" so I can try writing something during my spare time (I have a lot of those). I have my college /Call Center Training/non-sense articles notebook left along the other documents I usually bring during job applications with me as well. Browsing my notes, I came across a remark from my idol college professor: "YOU MUST IMPROVE YOUR PENMANSHIP". Most of my lawyer professors way back in college emphasized the importance of writing legibly in passing the Bar Exams. Since I have decided NoT to pursue this career back then, I disregarded the same note. Now it's haunting me.
How the hell can I improve my handwriting?
I think I need a Back To Basic Training course.
I was a third grader when I first received a negative feedback from my teacher on how bad my handwriting was. I wholeheartedly accepted that. I can't deny it. Kinahig ng Manok, they told me. Another comment ( a constructive one this time) came from my First Year High School English teacher . Not really a comment, more of a "quote". "Genius people doesn't write well." Yeah! I'm a genius 'eh? Just kidding! Hush! I even had a funny argument with my best friend and the consistent top of our class 'coz his handwriting isn't that good too. We're comparing whose handwriting is better. He insisted that his is better than mine so I'm more of a genius than him. Haha! Memories indeed, funny.
In my late elementary years, I have tried to change my writing style. My cursive handwriting really sucks. The same goes with my printed one. I have no choice. Thanks to our new class adviser, I had an example to pattern my new writing tech. From the kinahig ng manok, my writing was then characterized by a lot of extra longer strokes. In fairness, my writing became plainer [kaya lang mas umarte (shocks, hirap mag-english ah. haha)]. Thanks to my "improved" writing style, I somehow made use of it as a key in heading to my very first and only regional competition: RSPC 1999 at PGMNHS, Sta. Cruz, Laguna. Too bad my "writing" wasn't good enough to bring me further.
I consider writing as the best and only talent that I have. Compared to others, my writings are mediocre, amateur. I have a lot of flaws. My English dictionary is only limited to a number of words. Good thing I have my old and reliable dinosaur friend, the thesaurus, to back me up whenever needed. I have the usual grammatical errors. I can't even polish our thesis with a lot of language errors (thanks to our grammarian for cleaning up our mess).
Constant Practice: I've been trying to keep this in my mind every time I'm writing something. If you want to improve on something, keep practicing. For this reason, I keep on writing, even sometimes, it usually does not make any sense. Thanks to computers, I need not write them manually. Though I guess, the best of my writings came from my bad handwriting, pen and several crumpled papers. I consider myself good in writing but my handwriting is not good.
This brings me back to my initial conflict. .
I've got no chance to "go-where-i-want-to-be" if I can't work this one out.
Oh, and another flaw.
After graduation, I never held another academic book. I was contented in glancing my copy of the Civil Code. This past (almost) two years I kept myself busy with work (not really), and fun reading (manga, BO). Like a rusty old lamp, I need some polishing. I thought my school days are over. If I'm going back to school, I originally planned that it will be as a "teacher" and not as a student anymore. My eyes have lost their brightness. I don't think that I can be like my "old" self - someone who comes to class fully prepared, had advanced readings and notes, ready to engage in battle. My two-year break withered me.
I need another break.
I only have a few seconds to refresh (press F5 key). There.
I will keep on writing. I will. I will.
The pen is waiting for my hand. From hereon I will be taking a detour.
A a B b C c D d E e F f G g H h I i J j K k L l M m N n O o P p Q q R r S s T t U u V v W w X x Y y Z z.
Or should I say I will start with scratch.
[yes, shameful as it may be, I tried writing the letters of the alphabet like a kinder. The result: worse. I can't even consistently write these letters down. Hahahaha! (Tawa tayo!) Unsatisfactory with letters, I tried names. Then her name. Her name again. Then her name. Fail! ]
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Ubos na ang english ko. Magrecharge muna ako. =p.
Awa nyo na, pano ga magpaganda ng sulat?
I intentionally brought a pen with me in my "quarters" so I can try writing something during my spare time (I have a lot of those). I have my college /Call Center Training/non-sense articles notebook left along the other documents I usually bring during job applications with me as well. Browsing my notes, I came across a remark from my idol college professor: "YOU MUST IMPROVE YOUR PENMANSHIP". Most of my lawyer professors way back in college emphasized the importance of writing legibly in passing the Bar Exams. Since I have decided NoT to pursue this career back then, I disregarded the same note. Now it's haunting me.
How the hell can I improve my handwriting?
I think I need a Back To Basic Training course.
I was a third grader when I first received a negative feedback from my teacher on how bad my handwriting was. I wholeheartedly accepted that. I can't deny it. Kinahig ng Manok, they told me. Another comment ( a constructive one this time) came from my First Year High School English teacher . Not really a comment, more of a "quote". "Genius people doesn't write well." Yeah! I'm a genius 'eh? Just kidding! Hush! I even had a funny argument with my best friend and the consistent top of our class 'coz his handwriting isn't that good too. We're comparing whose handwriting is better. He insisted that his is better than mine so I'm more of a genius than him. Haha! Memories indeed, funny.
In my late elementary years, I have tried to change my writing style. My cursive handwriting really sucks. The same goes with my printed one. I have no choice. Thanks to our new class adviser, I had an example to pattern my new writing tech. From the kinahig ng manok, my writing was then characterized by a lot of extra longer strokes. In fairness, my writing became plainer [kaya lang mas umarte (shocks, hirap mag-english ah. haha)]. Thanks to my "improved" writing style, I somehow made use of it as a key in heading to my very first and only regional competition: RSPC 1999 at PGMNHS, Sta. Cruz, Laguna. Too bad my "writing" wasn't good enough to bring me further.
I consider writing as the best and only talent that I have. Compared to others, my writings are mediocre, amateur. I have a lot of flaws. My English dictionary is only limited to a number of words. Good thing I have my old and reliable dinosaur friend, the thesaurus, to back me up whenever needed. I have the usual grammatical errors. I can't even polish our thesis with a lot of language errors (thanks to our grammarian for cleaning up our mess).
Constant Practice: I've been trying to keep this in my mind every time I'm writing something. If you want to improve on something, keep practicing. For this reason, I keep on writing, even sometimes, it usually does not make any sense. Thanks to computers, I need not write them manually. Though I guess, the best of my writings came from my bad handwriting, pen and several crumpled papers. I consider myself good in writing but my handwriting is not good.
This brings me back to my initial conflict. .
I've got no chance to "go-where-i-want-to-be" if I can't work this one out.
Oh, and another flaw.
After graduation, I never held another academic book. I was contented in glancing my copy of the Civil Code. This past (almost) two years I kept myself busy with work (not really), and fun reading (manga, BO). Like a rusty old lamp, I need some polishing. I thought my school days are over. If I'm going back to school, I originally planned that it will be as a "teacher" and not as a student anymore. My eyes have lost their brightness. I don't think that I can be like my "old" self - someone who comes to class fully prepared, had advanced readings and notes, ready to engage in battle. My two-year break withered me.
I need another break.
I only have a few seconds to refresh (press F5 key). There.
I will keep on writing. I will. I will.
The pen is waiting for my hand. From hereon I will be taking a detour.
A a B b C c D d E e F f G g H h I i J j K k L l M m N n O o P p Q q R r S s T t U u V v W w X x Y y Z z.
Or should I say I will start with scratch.
[yes, shameful as it may be, I tried writing the letters of the alphabet like a kinder. The result: worse. I can't even consistently write these letters down. Hahahaha! (Tawa tayo!) Unsatisfactory with letters, I tried names. Then her name. Her name again. Then her name. Fail! ]
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Ubos na ang english ko. Magrecharge muna ako. =p.
Awa nyo na, pano ga magpaganda ng sulat?
Saturday, January 9, 2010
remembering something 3 years ago
January 9. 2010.
Haven't noticed it. Then, it's been 3 years since I got that item, actually, a pair. (My bestfriend once told me when I thought of sending her a present that it would be nice if I can give a pair of any item. One will be hers, and the other will be mine, so we will still have some sort of connection. Thanks to that idea, though I failed to give her the same (cause I already had something different for her, too bad her message came in a few hours late). The good thing, I find this useful for another person.
Yeah, it's the Feast of the Black Nazarene. I'm not a fanatic or a devotee. I never thought of going with the crowd (might happen someday, who knows) to take a look or wipe my hankie so I can be blessed by the image. It just happened that in that particular day 3 years ago, I incidentally had been in Quiapo after visiting my hospitalized father back on his first mild stroke attack. I was still in my school uniform back then, along with my sister and his husband, and some relatives who also went to visit my father. Making our way back home, knowing that it is the Feast in Quiapo, we decided to pass by and take part in attending the 7 o'clock mass outside the famous church.
It was my first time to be there. I expected that there will be a lot of people gathering around, after all it is that day of the year. Besides I think it will still be crowded there on any given day. I walked around, keeping my eye on my companions, taking my time to find anything interesting. My uncles and aunties are already buying something as souvenirs. Then my attention was caught by those familiar armlets. I used to buy my high school friends the same during fiestas. "That will be my souvenir", I thought. Yes, so I bought one. Quite a simple item as a souvenir. After all, I can't avail of anything more than that, I'm flat broke =p.
Having thought of someone, I got another armlet. The same color and size. So, that might work as a pair. Remembering what my bestfriend told me before, if I can give the other one to someone, then I will somehow have a connection with her for a "period".
Taking the pair with me back home, I decided to give the other to the person whom I consider the most important one for me during that time. The day after, during our usual time together at school, I gave it to her as just a casual item. Something like "lending" those leeches sheets of yellow paper when our instructor announces seatworks and quizzes. I wore my armlet, and she kept hers in her bag (I wonder if she ever wore that even once). I have that with me for quite sometime, with the promise to myself that I will make the other person with its "pair" happy all the time.
Some time passed, she went away. I kept wearing those until the "lock" was untied. I tried fixing it but it seems that I don't know how. I have not worn it since then. One by one, the laces kept on loosening. No matter how I tried setting them back in its old form, I always failed. Someday, I'm gonna find a way to fix it and make it look like new.
To date, I still have that item I've got three years ago. It was preserved in my so-called "memory box". I have no idea where the other half of the pair is. A part of me is hoping that it is still in one piece. If so, another wish will be to see it, and another hope that the pair will never be apart again. But also, the other part of me is starting to think of permanently sealing my own item in that box, and finding a new pair for myself.
Wherever it is and whatever may happen, that other half will always be a part of me.
Haven't noticed it. Then, it's been 3 years since I got that item, actually, a pair. (My bestfriend once told me when I thought of sending her a present that it would be nice if I can give a pair of any item. One will be hers, and the other will be mine, so we will still have some sort of connection. Thanks to that idea, though I failed to give her the same (cause I already had something different for her, too bad her message came in a few hours late). The good thing, I find this useful for another person.
Yeah, it's the Feast of the Black Nazarene. I'm not a fanatic or a devotee. I never thought of going with the crowd (might happen someday, who knows) to take a look or wipe my hankie so I can be blessed by the image. It just happened that in that particular day 3 years ago, I incidentally had been in Quiapo after visiting my hospitalized father back on his first mild stroke attack. I was still in my school uniform back then, along with my sister and his husband, and some relatives who also went to visit my father. Making our way back home, knowing that it is the Feast in Quiapo, we decided to pass by and take part in attending the 7 o'clock mass outside the famous church.
It was my first time to be there. I expected that there will be a lot of people gathering around, after all it is that day of the year. Besides I think it will still be crowded there on any given day. I walked around, keeping my eye on my companions, taking my time to find anything interesting. My uncles and aunties are already buying something as souvenirs. Then my attention was caught by those familiar armlets. I used to buy my high school friends the same during fiestas. "That will be my souvenir", I thought. Yes, so I bought one. Quite a simple item as a souvenir. After all, I can't avail of anything more than that, I'm flat broke =p.
Having thought of someone, I got another armlet. The same color and size. So, that might work as a pair. Remembering what my bestfriend told me before, if I can give the other one to someone, then I will somehow have a connection with her for a "period".
Taking the pair with me back home, I decided to give the other to the person whom I consider the most important one for me during that time. The day after, during our usual time together at school, I gave it to her as just a casual item. Something like "lending" those leeches sheets of yellow paper when our instructor announces seatworks and quizzes. I wore my armlet, and she kept hers in her bag (I wonder if she ever wore that even once). I have that with me for quite sometime, with the promise to myself that I will make the other person with its "pair" happy all the time.
Some time passed, she went away. I kept wearing those until the "lock" was untied. I tried fixing it but it seems that I don't know how. I have not worn it since then. One by one, the laces kept on loosening. No matter how I tried setting them back in its old form, I always failed. Someday, I'm gonna find a way to fix it and make it look like new.
To date, I still have that item I've got three years ago. It was preserved in my so-called "memory box". I have no idea where the other half of the pair is. A part of me is hoping that it is still in one piece. If so, another wish will be to see it, and another hope that the pair will never be apart again. But also, the other part of me is starting to think of permanently sealing my own item in that box, and finding a new pair for myself.
Wherever it is and whatever may happen, that other half will always be a part of me.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
nag-iingay lang... bagong taon eh :p
Aheerrrmmmm... Naubos na english ko ah. Tagalog ulet:D
Tag-lish na nga lang. Para madali. Krissy Style! Aha-ha-ha-ha-ha:D I know na!
Lately pala puro mga seryoso na entries ang napost ko dito. Yung iba naman non-sense. (Halos non-sense naman lahat, non-sense din naman yung nagsusulat. Makes sense?)
Okei. Start of the year. Sana puro maganda naman mangyari ngayong taon. Last year was a mess. I wish this year will be the opposite.
Hmm.. Siguro ako lang nag-iisip nito pero napansin ko lang. This past two years nagcelebrate (or "pinadaan") ko ang New Year's eve na masama ang pakiramdam ko. Ewan bakit ganon. Then the rest of the year, madaming nangyaring di maganda. Siguro kung paano ko sinalubong ang bagong taon eh parang foreshadowing ng mangyayari the whole year. Coincidence lang naman siguro. Nevermind anyways...
Pero kung ganito nga yung trend, then this year I'll make sure na magcecelebrate ako na healthy and happy:)
Cliche as it may be, palagi ko din ginagamit ang kasabihan/ idea na 'to. "There's a rainbow after the rain, sunshine after the darkest of the nights..." Well, I just had my darkest nightmare. Could this mean that this year I should expect the "best" of things? Can't conclude that yet. I hate setting expectations.
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Storytelling Mode
I've tried so hard to enjoy my holiday vacation (???!!???) . A trip to Enchanted Kingdom on the day before Christmas was my first stop. Masaya naman, first time ko dun eh:D Mas masaya lang siguro kung madaming kasama. Pinakamasaya kung kasama ko si "espi". Weeh hahaha! As if I have one (in my dreams, yes). At least, I had a day to relax and have fun.
Christmas
- Uhhhmm, dumaan pala ang Pasko. Di ko namalayan. Tsk. Sa ngayon, ang meaning na lang sa 'ken ng Pasko eh Gastos. (Sorry Bro, araw mo nga pala yun. Araw din ng mga chikiting). Solo ko ang daigdig. First Christmas na magkakahiwalay kame. Ang Tatay, andun na sa taas, ang Inay nasa kabilang dagat, ang panganay namen ewan, ang ate kasama ng pamilya nya sa pamilya ng kanyang asawa. Paskong pasko nakaharap ako sa laptop, busy sa pagbabasa ng manga (One Piece, the best!:D). Mga pamangkin at hipag ko lamang ang kasama ko (technically hindi, nasa kabilang bahay sila). Andaming dumaan sa bahay, namamasko. Tago mode naman ang mokong na 'to. (^_^)V Buti na lang nag-aya yung isa kong friend sa kanila, then dumalaw sa 4th year adviser at nakichika. Hush.
Ansaya saya ng pasko ko (pag-uuyam).
Two days back to work. Break ulet. New Year.
Rizal Day
-Unang regular holiday na hindi ko pinasukan sa trabaho. Gusto kong lubusin ang pahinga. Hindi na ulit kase ako makakaranas ng 5-day break dito. Kalimutan na ang double pay. May mas mahalaga akong gagawin. Sa tinagal tagal ko na dito sa kabihasnan, first time ko pa lang nakapunta sa MOA na mag-isa. Third overall (The first two being exposure trips way back in college One dated August 23 2006 :D, the other, sometime in August 2007) (saklap, tsk Ganyan ako ka-promdi, and I'm Proud of it). Wala namang notable na nangyari, nanakit lang paa ko sa kalilibot para mahanap ang tindahan ng mga Anime items. Napagod man, sulit na din ang araw. Nakahanap pa ako ng matagal ko ng hinahanap na One Piece movie collection. Saya :p Kinelangan din na maghanap ng kung anumang item para sa kasalukuyang pinakamahalagang tao sa mokong na 'to. Got one.
Last day of the year. Special Holiday. Walang pasok.
-Usually, tuwing gantong araw pumupunta ako sa bayan para mamili ng mga ihahanda sa Media Noche at mga paputok para makapag-ingay. Pass muna ngayong taon. Tulad nung Pasko, kanya-kanya na naman kaming magcecelebrate. Ang Inay, dumaan lang sa bahay nung isang araw, umalis din at sa kung saan na naman nag New Year (wawa naman si bunso). First time ko nag New Year na wala ako sa bahay. First time din na hindi ako nakahawak ng paputok, lusis at kung ano pang pampaingay pampailaw. First time na hindi ako nakatalon nung sumapit ang 12 o'clock. Ayos. Wala na talaga akong pag-asang tumangkad:D
Knowing that I won't enjoy this celebration much if I stayed at home, I decided to "find my happiness". Even without my family, I still had the best New Year's eve I'd ever had.
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That's about starting things right. Start the year right and end it right.
This year I had resolved to change things. A new year means a new self. Time to move forward. Time to keep walking. Here I go. Almost there. Taking a higher leap, I'm going to reach you.
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Sa mga nakabasa nito (at sa iba ko pang nonsense na post) at nag-isip ng kung anu-ano tungkol saken... Ayos lang. Ang saken lang,... "Walang basagan ng Trip!" :D:D:D
--- dapat ata nasa frontpage ng blog to. Disclaimer:)
Tag-lish na nga lang. Para madali. Krissy Style! Aha-ha-ha-ha-ha:D I know na!
Lately pala puro mga seryoso na entries ang napost ko dito. Yung iba naman non-sense. (Halos non-sense naman lahat, non-sense din naman yung nagsusulat. Makes sense?)
Okei. Start of the year. Sana puro maganda naman mangyari ngayong taon. Last year was a mess. I wish this year will be the opposite.
Hmm.. Siguro ako lang nag-iisip nito pero napansin ko lang. This past two years nagcelebrate (or "pinadaan") ko ang New Year's eve na masama ang pakiramdam ko. Ewan bakit ganon. Then the rest of the year, madaming nangyaring di maganda. Siguro kung paano ko sinalubong ang bagong taon eh parang foreshadowing ng mangyayari the whole year. Coincidence lang naman siguro. Nevermind anyways...
Pero kung ganito nga yung trend, then this year I'll make sure na magcecelebrate ako na healthy and happy:)
Cliche as it may be, palagi ko din ginagamit ang kasabihan/ idea na 'to. "There's a rainbow after the rain, sunshine after the darkest of the nights..." Well, I just had my darkest nightmare. Could this mean that this year I should expect the "best" of things? Can't conclude that yet. I hate setting expectations.
====
Storytelling Mode
I've tried so hard to enjoy my holiday vacation (???!!???) . A trip to Enchanted Kingdom on the day before Christmas was my first stop. Masaya naman, first time ko dun eh:D Mas masaya lang siguro kung madaming kasama. Pinakamasaya kung kasama ko si "espi". Weeh hahaha! As if I have one (in my dreams, yes). At least, I had a day to relax and have fun.
Christmas
- Uhhhmm, dumaan pala ang Pasko. Di ko namalayan. Tsk. Sa ngayon, ang meaning na lang sa 'ken ng Pasko eh Gastos. (Sorry Bro, araw mo nga pala yun. Araw din ng mga chikiting). Solo ko ang daigdig. First Christmas na magkakahiwalay kame. Ang Tatay, andun na sa taas, ang Inay nasa kabilang dagat, ang panganay namen ewan, ang ate kasama ng pamilya nya sa pamilya ng kanyang asawa. Paskong pasko nakaharap ako sa laptop, busy sa pagbabasa ng manga (One Piece, the best!:D). Mga pamangkin at hipag ko lamang ang kasama ko (technically hindi, nasa kabilang bahay sila). Andaming dumaan sa bahay, namamasko. Tago mode naman ang mokong na 'to. (^_^)V Buti na lang nag-aya yung isa kong friend sa kanila, then dumalaw sa 4th year adviser at nakichika. Hush.
Ansaya saya ng pasko ko (pag-uuyam).
Two days back to work. Break ulet. New Year.
Rizal Day
-Unang regular holiday na hindi ko pinasukan sa trabaho. Gusto kong lubusin ang pahinga. Hindi na ulit kase ako makakaranas ng 5-day break dito. Kalimutan na ang double pay. May mas mahalaga akong gagawin. Sa tinagal tagal ko na dito sa kabihasnan, first time ko pa lang nakapunta sa MOA na mag-isa. Third overall (The first two being exposure trips way back in college One dated August 23 2006 :D, the other, sometime in August 2007) (saklap, tsk Ganyan ako ka-promdi, and I'm Proud of it). Wala namang notable na nangyari, nanakit lang paa ko sa kalilibot para mahanap ang tindahan ng mga Anime items. Napagod man, sulit na din ang araw. Nakahanap pa ako ng matagal ko ng hinahanap na One Piece movie collection. Saya :p Kinelangan din na maghanap ng kung anumang item para sa kasalukuyang pinakamahalagang tao sa mokong na 'to. Got one.
Last day of the year. Special Holiday. Walang pasok.
-Usually, tuwing gantong araw pumupunta ako sa bayan para mamili ng mga ihahanda sa Media Noche at mga paputok para makapag-ingay. Pass muna ngayong taon. Tulad nung Pasko, kanya-kanya na naman kaming magcecelebrate. Ang Inay, dumaan lang sa bahay nung isang araw, umalis din at sa kung saan na naman nag New Year (wawa naman si bunso). First time ko nag New Year na wala ako sa bahay. First time din na hindi ako nakahawak ng paputok, lusis at kung ano pang pampaingay pampailaw. First time na hindi ako nakatalon nung sumapit ang 12 o'clock. Ayos. Wala na talaga akong pag-asang tumangkad:D
Knowing that I won't enjoy this celebration much if I stayed at home, I decided to "find my happiness". Even without my family, I still had the best New Year's eve I'd ever had.
---
That's about starting things right. Start the year right and end it right.
This year I had resolved to change things. A new year means a new self. Time to move forward. Time to keep walking. Here I go. Almost there. Taking a higher leap, I'm going to reach you.
======
Sa mga nakabasa nito (at sa iba ko pang nonsense na post) at nag-isip ng kung anu-ano tungkol saken... Ayos lang. Ang saken lang,... "Walang basagan ng Trip!" :D:D:D
--- dapat ata nasa frontpage ng blog to. Disclaimer:)
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