Just like a Grade 1 pupil on his first day in school. Argh I hate it.
I intentionally brought a pen with me in my "quarters" so I can try writing something during my spare time (I have a lot of those). I have my college /Call Center Training/non-sense articles notebook left along the other documents I usually bring during job applications with me as well. Browsing my notes, I came across a remark from my idol college professor: "YOU MUST IMPROVE YOUR PENMANSHIP". Most of my lawyer professors way back in college emphasized the importance of writing legibly in passing the Bar Exams. Since I have decided NoT to pursue this career back then, I disregarded the same note. Now it's haunting me.
How the hell can I improve my handwriting?
I think I need a Back To Basic Training course.
I was a third grader when I first received a negative feedback from my teacher on how bad my handwriting was. I wholeheartedly accepted that. I can't deny it. Kinahig ng Manok, they told me. Another comment ( a constructive one this time) came from my First Year High School English teacher . Not really a comment, more of a "quote". "Genius people doesn't write well." Yeah! I'm a genius 'eh? Just kidding! Hush! I even had a funny argument with my best friend and the consistent top of our class 'coz his handwriting isn't that good too. We're comparing whose handwriting is better. He insisted that his is better than mine so I'm more of a genius than him. Haha! Memories indeed, funny.
In my late elementary years, I have tried to change my writing style. My cursive handwriting really sucks. The same goes with my printed one. I have no choice. Thanks to our new class adviser, I had an example to pattern my new writing tech. From the kinahig ng manok, my writing was then characterized by a lot of extra longer strokes. In fairness, my writing became plainer [kaya lang mas umarte (shocks, hirap mag-english ah. haha)]. Thanks to my "improved" writing style, I somehow made use of it as a key in heading to my very first and only regional competition: RSPC 1999 at PGMNHS, Sta. Cruz, Laguna. Too bad my "writing" wasn't good enough to bring me further.
I consider writing as the best and only talent that I have. Compared to others, my writings are mediocre, amateur. I have a lot of flaws. My English dictionary is only limited to a number of words. Good thing I have my old and reliable dinosaur friend, the thesaurus, to back me up whenever needed. I have the usual grammatical errors. I can't even polish our thesis with a lot of language errors (thanks to our grammarian for cleaning up our mess).
Constant Practice: I've been trying to keep this in my mind every time I'm writing something. If you want to improve on something, keep practicing. For this reason, I keep on writing, even sometimes, it usually does not make any sense. Thanks to computers, I need not write them manually. Though I guess, the best of my writings came from my bad handwriting, pen and several crumpled papers. I consider myself good in writing but my handwriting is not good.
This brings me back to my initial conflict. .
I've got no chance to "go-where-i-want-to-be" if I can't work this one out.
Oh, and another flaw.
After graduation, I never held another academic book. I was contented in glancing my copy of the Civil Code. This past (almost) two years I kept myself busy with work (not really), and fun reading (manga, BO). Like a rusty old lamp, I need some polishing. I thought my school days are over. If I'm going back to school, I originally planned that it will be as a "teacher" and not as a student anymore. My eyes have lost their brightness. I don't think that I can be like my "old" self - someone who comes to class fully prepared, had advanced readings and notes, ready to engage in battle. My two-year break withered me.
I need another break.
I only have a few seconds to refresh (press F5 key). There.
I will keep on writing. I will. I will.
The pen is waiting for my hand. From hereon I will be taking a detour.
A a B b C c D d E e F f G g H h I i J j K k L l M m N n O o P p Q q R r S s T t U u V v W w X x Y y Z z.
Or should I say I will start with scratch.
[yes, shameful as it may be, I tried writing the letters of the alphabet like a kinder. The result: worse. I can't even consistently write these letters down. Hahahaha! (Tawa tayo!) Unsatisfactory with letters, I tried names. Then her name. Her name again. Then her name. Fail! ]
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Ubos na ang english ko. Magrecharge muna ako. =p.
Awa nyo na, pano ga magpaganda ng sulat?
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