Sodium

A bit salty
Quite bittersweet
Colorless
Tasteless
Simplicity

History
Reboot
Freedom
Bondage
Union

Titanium

The struggle is real
The battle heats on
Why just now?
Am I too late?
Or too soon?


It's all in the mind
Stay still
Hold on
Take a small step
backwards


The bigger picture lies ahead

Defeat yourself

Win this battle

At all costs...

Thankful...

As a chapter of my life ends, a new one promises to open.

 

Of all the things I will be leaving as I approach the married life, there is something I will miss the most : my service to the SFC Community. Aside from my soon to be other half, my SFC Napico 2 Chapter is definitely one of the best things that ever happened to me. 

 

I don't need to say any flowery words. It can't simply be described. The feeling each time I attend the gatherings, teachings, assemblies and conferences is real: pure delight with the community of friends which I consider as brothers and sisters in Christ. The joy, challenges, hardships, conflicts, glory, and all other emotions we invested in service - this is truly a journey with a roller coaster of an experience. 

 

And now, it's about time to leave my status as a "Singles" for Christ. 

 

However, I will only be changing the Single, and will still remain "For Christ."

 

I have already left my service once because of a miscalculated step. And it caused me one of my biggest heartaches so far. Too many people I've hurt, too much disappointment and regret I caused them. But despite that, the community still welcomed the sinner me. Accepted that version of me and treated just like the prodigal son in the bible. And so, I was back in one of the services I love the most. 

 

I attribute a huge portion of who I am today to my service as part of the SFC community. 5 years ago, I rediscovered my interest in writing by documenting my CLP experience with the intention of keeping and sharing the lessons I have learned back then. Since becoming a member of SFC, I had changed my view of things: always trying to see the positive side in every situation and having that "affirmative" mindset. That resulted with me to always wear that cheerful smile (thanks for me being a part of the Registration committee and having to welcome the participants), never complaining of the task I was assigned to since these are all a part of our service to Him. I eventually applied that mindset in my work, to think of everything as just a hindrance which, too, shall pass. 

 

That positive mindset changed how I feel. Each day, I feel so "light-hearted." It's like a huge burden has been taken off of me since I started in SFC. That is the best feeling in the world: despite getting hurt or bearing the pressure in tough situations, I was able to get through all of it because of this new mindset. This, I wish to be remembered for and to share to everyone I have met. 

 

I had my regular prayer time back then. I resumed my connection to Lord God. That has been one of my most effective weapons and assists in living my life alone, away from my family. 

 

I found my true friends, and even my soon to be wife in SFC. Serving God with them is definitely one of the highlights of my life. The fellowship we had created has been the bond that keeps us as one. I have nothing but my best wishes to my friends in the community. 

 

As I turn over a new page, I want to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has become a part of my life as a member of SFC.

 

First and foremost, for reintroducing God and Jesus Christ in my life, I thank the whole Chapter and everyone from the CFC community for all the teachings, talks, and conferences. Nothing can beat the experience while we are praising and worshiping Him with songs and prayer. I get so "high" in every prayer and song, though I don't have the right tune and sync while clapping and stamping my feet. I just wanted my voice to be heard, to reach Him. 

 

The chapter assemblies which revived the child in me. The games we played made me so competitive, at the same time, regain the child hiding within me. 

 

The chapter teachings and workshops, by hearing stories in the bible once again and extracting real life lessons in them...

 

Cornerstone, definitely one of the services I will miss the most : knowing I was able to help a few kids by teaching and helping them to read. I am already missing my tutees

 

The households, the old and new, with whom I was able to share and hear a few of our stories, thanks for the openness and the bond we created during those times. 

 

And to all my brothers and sisters in Christ. Thank you for the gift of friendship. Thank you for allowing me to serve with all of you, for accepting me despite my flaws. Thank you for the gift of community and service. For all the times we had shared, for teaching me to be more generous of my time, talent and treasure.

 

I don't need to mention each of all your names, you know who you are. Thank you for being a huge part of my life in SFC. 

 

The fellowships after CLPs and talks, the bente-bentes, the Iced Coffee sessions, the music jamming... What a experience this has been. For someone so quiet and timid, thank you for letting me feel that I belong. 

 

And of course, for the send-off party last night. Thank you for giving me a night to remember before I leave the "Singles" in Singles for Christ. For those who exerted effort and willingly shared your treasure, a big thanks. As I said, I may not be surprised (hehe), but still, I owe you all big time. For all the kind words, for honoring me, that is something I did not expect and I can't explain how to feel knowing how I was able to influence some of you with how I served.

 

I won't be saying "goodbye." (I still wish to attend our gatherings ) All of you are my friends, brothers and sisters. I will still be around, helping in any way possible. 

 

And above all, thank you, Lord God... For such a wonderful experience. For everything. You know everything about me. For embracing me once again despite me turning my back to you on multiple occasions. For loving me unconditionally.

 

Let me continue to serve You more. To love more. To be like You more. 

 

Let the fire of service continue to be burning in my heart for You. To be overflowing, ablaze and overjoyed. 

 

Let me continue to praise and worship You with all my strength, to give my all.

 

With You, I am Truly Home. For I have found my peace. I am and will be forever grateful.

 

For all of these, may God be praised.

 

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